The Spotless Mind

Night fever night fever!

2005-11-03T11:02:00.000-08:00

Had an awesome week and a hospital trip!! Yes, my plan to stay out of casulaty this year has fallen by the way side. Last week, i pulled of an amazing feat in work and rewarded myself by going out on the lash on Saturday night. Matty J and Leavers came out and we had a wicked night. We toured the usual places and ended up in the Philly. We met up with Rob Archer, Anne-Marie, Katy Prince and Gemma Ford! It was great.

On the way home, went to Miss Millies and then made my way back home. Unfortunately someone thought it would be funny to run up behind me and smash my head into a wall. Split the top of my head open and spent a total time of 7 hours down the Quacks! Had my head glued back together. I'm fine though and have just cracked on with my busy week.

Went to Becky Kennedys house on Monday night and had a great time. We had food and watched The Amityville Horror. Then had a good chat afterwards.

Tuesday, i watched The Company of Wolves which was really weird but entertaining none the less.

Last night, i went to see Saturday Night Fever at the Millenium Centre. I had bought tickets for my Mums 50th birthday. We went out for food first down the bay and then made out way over to the show. It had Barry from Eastenders in it and the show was class! Absolutely brilliant. At the end everyone was up on there feet singing along and having a boogie. One of the best musicals i've ever been to. Mum had a great time and we've decided to book tickets to go and see Footloose in there in January.

Today was ok in work, had a long day as i had to have a Video Conferencing call at 4. This was pretty cool though. The wonders of technology.

Back in Black - Quite Literally!

2005-10-27T12:25:00.000-07:00

Its been quite some time since I sat down properly and decided to write a blog entry. Some might say too long and others might say not long enough so I reckon if I stick somewhere in the middle then I can't go far wrong!

The last proper entry was back at the beginning of August and a lot has changed since then. Let me see if I can go back in time and recount the activities that have shaped my existence.

August
Well, the highlight has to be the 2 weeks spent looking after Josh. Well, not looking after as the boy is old enough to do that himself. Let's just say guidance or maybe just a big brother style capacity and I don't mean the TV show. Mum and Dad went away for 2 weeks to Italy so I booked time off work and spent it up in Rhoose.
Just before this I attended the best training course I have ever been on. It was based around NLP and the stuff that Derren Brown does. It has well and truly changed me for the better. If you have a chance then have a look at the world of Neuro-Lingistic Programming because there really is a vast amount of information out there that you can use.

Anyway, away from work Josh turned 16 on the same day that he picked up his GCSE results. He did really well, better than I did actually the little git! We had an awesome party in the night to celebrate and the house did get a little messy. The kitchen was bogging but drinking games and teenage shenanigans ruled the roost. Karaoke took place as did some serious drinking!
The next morning was not a pretty sight and the challenge of cleaning up without throwing up was on.

After this a few rounds of pitch and putt took place down the local golf course. The Porthkerry Golf association summer tour sponsored by the Barry Gem and Green Valley spring water was invented. The next few days saw The Rough Putter and Geoffrey 'The Issac' Hayes play a few rounds whilst commenting on their performance. This was the lead up to visiting the largest pitch and putt course in the UK, with a rather special camping expedition to Newquay.

Josh and myself packed up the car and left the day after the bank holiday for the long drive to Newquay. The first day was boiling hot and we were able to go to Hollywell park to play golf which had some awesome holes. Death or glory was a favorite where you basically twatted the ball as hard as you could off a cliff!

We went out on the razz the first night and ended up getting a warning when we got back to the campsite, but the next day was to be spent surfing. Except it pissed with rain and thundered with constant bursts of lightening thrown in for good measure. We went surfing anyway with some massive 10 footers crashing onto the beach. Josh was good and did manage a spectacular 360 somersault off the board where as I barley to managed to stand up once!

The second night camping and in the morning we left. It was an awesome little break.

When I returned to work, I found out the news that we had been head hunted as a team to move to the bay to work! Awesome, I am now a Business Change analyst and I work opposite the Welsh Assembly! Its wicked and I am loving the job. Been on some really difficult projects and have performed really well so looking for a good pay rise in January.

My trip to Amsterdam for 3 nights was out of this world, or should I say out of this mind. Tony and myself really get in some worse for where states out in the Dam. Booze and weed took its toll and Tony started to talk to Alfred the Dwarf! Funny as! We visited all the tourist locations including Anne Franks house, Van Goghs gallery, The Heineken factory and the Rijskard museum. We have already booked tickets to fly out again next March. Carnage is the word I'd use.

I have taken up running again and am working really hard to get fit enough to join Les Croupiers running club next week. I'm looking forward to it as I've built up a level of fitness and am really getting back into it again. Am already thinking about entering a few races.

I have finished my film script and am in the process of getting it proof read before I send it off to a few places. This has taken a while but I am really excited about it.

Overall, I'm doing really good and living life to the max. In the next weeks, I'm seeing Saturday Night Fever in the millennium centre, watching Wales vs Fiji and Wales vs Australia. I'm going to Edinburgh with work to visit a couple of work sites and then I'm returning to edinburgh again for a Xmas shopping day.

The blog has restarted!

New site soon

2005-10-10T13:49:00.000-07:00

Yes, it will all become clear soon, the massive wait for a post will end!!!

Been a very busy boy of late with loads of news but feel that this site ties me back to when i needed to blog. Now, its just for fun so the site should represent that. No bad news for quite a while touch wood, and it aint gonna soon either, positivity all the way!

Owzy - Get to Cardiff

As for everyone else, i've been ready your blogs on the sly, but just keeping myself to myself, so get ready for the new all improved Evans.

Highlights of new sight will include Newquay, amsterdam, job move to the bay, girls and parties! Bet you can't wait! All details will be revealed soon.

GAV - Always around, but quiet enough to pass you by!

Sanity awaits!

2005-08-11T11:41:00.000-07:00

Wow! My god live is so much better now that i have escaped from NBU! Honestly, I don't read going to work anymore and i actually feel that i have a proper job!! I have responsiblities and deadlines, projects and presentations! I get praised instead of continually passed over and i trust the people that i work with. Its really refreshing!!

Have had a good time since i started and have had some important stuff to do as well. I am in the process of presentating several different slide shows around the whole gate, so everyone who is learning who i am and its great!! I'm learning so much at the same time and its all transferable skills so i can get all this training and hopefully develop myself even further.

Last weekend was mental! Went out on the friday night for a leaving do in work which wasn't the best of nights but i still ended up quite pissed and up till gone two with james! Then the next day i decided to step back into the underwriting shoes and decision fraud for a day!

Now, before you say you big mentalist! There is some sanity being my decisioning (Oh PUN tastic, thats even amazed myself). If i worked the Saturday i would be given a free ticket to the Community shield in the Millenium stadium. Chelsea vs Arsenal! So after work it was the first day of the Championship season and Wolves were live on TV against Southampton! The new away kit duly arrived on the Saturday morning so i felt like a little kid getting all excited by putting my new top on and going over the pub.

Wolves drew 0-0 and i got pissed again! Hooray! I then sat down and watched the Machnist. What an amazing film - 5 stars. I loved it, really graphic, tense and thought provoking film.

Then Sunday, Got up and walked to town. Met Paul Gray, Don and Wendy Crotty and went to the Old Orleans and got back on it! Gemma and Emma arrived and then Dan Chapple so we all had a real good laugh before making our way to the stadium. The atmosphere was great and i loved every minute of it. Henry is class but chelsea deserved to win.

After this we went back to Old Orleans and drank and drank before everyone went home except for me, gemma and emma. On we went to Varsity and carried on drinking and doing karaoke! It was great fun and it was the first time that i've been karaoke properly since splitting up with andrea. I was well pleased with myself and i felt great. Probably cos i'd had 11 pints!! So i went home and James and Noralauaghed at me cos i had to go to work the next day but i didnt care!!!

Monday - i was hanging! Bed early!
Tuesday - Went to Penarth with my dad and Josh for food. We had a real good laugh and me and Dad chatted how we both enjoyed working together when i finished my GCSE's. I will always look back on that summer as a brilliant time. I saw some sights thats for sure. I worked as a labourer as my dad fitted cookers and fires. It was such a laugh and i earned a mint. I always remember, this high rise flat that i went to where this man (much of been over 80) was living in such squalor that i almost cried. Just a few matresses in the corner of the room and that was it. The place stank and the flats were crawling with druggies. We tried to fit the old guy a new cooker but he just asked us to leave it there and then he tried to offer me some money. A two shilling coin. We left him and called social services. When i mentioned to Dad he seemed really sad and even said he had nightmares over ity sometimes. Makes me really sad. That guy deserved better but no one cared anymore. I'll never let my parents live out there days like that.

Some of the funniest times ever happened that summer though too. The famous ham sandwich incident is just one and there are so many others. I'll never forget that summer and i hope that Dad wont either.

Wednesday - Went to watch the Skeleton key with aimee. The film was crap the company was good!

Thursday - Off to play footy now and just bought a new printer so i can work on my film script!

Hope your all ok, perhaps see some of you soon

Does anybody read this anymore?

2005-08-01T12:58:00.000-07:00

S its been a while and what the hell have i been up to. Well, i got bored with writing the blog andsince Owzy wenty awol for a while i kinda did the same. I been quite busy though to be honest. So lets have a re-cap.

- Was getting dicked around in work so applied for several other jobs and managed to secure myself a Change Anaylst job. Perm Level 2! Happy days, been doing it for 4 days now and i like it. A proper job!
- Turned 24 and got absolutely wrecked out of my face for my birthday. Pub golf in town whic turned very messy, and came home with the ex!
- Got rid of Natalie cos she was boring. Fit as you like but no personality. Gutted
- Been Chepstow races and met a nice girl. Seen her a couple of times but don't think anything serious will come of that either. Obviously something wrong with me! Possible commitment phobe issues!
- Went Alton Towers for two days and stayed in the hotel. That was class. Rita Queen of spped was well good but Air was awesome!
- Had a boys reunion on Saturday and ended up smashed out of my face - not as bad as Perry or Dolph though! Was really good to see everyone.

And thats pretty much it. I may start again but i wanna change the name again!!!!
Speak soon

I heard the news today oh boy

2005-06-13T10:20:00.000-07:00

Monday 13th and i cried today. First time in quite a while. Not even really sure why, seems stupid thinking about it.

Havent felt myself now for a good few days and i've been a little confused to say the least. Me and Natalie are getting on alright, taking it nice and slowly. But i have had the stupid ex flicking around again, as soon as i get her out of my head she manages to contact me and flip back upside down again. It always seem to be when i go away for some reason or another. Edinburgh - she contacted me. Sheffield - and again, then the other week, Manchester - as soon as i got back she pops up again. Its the most annoying thing in the world. If you've seen the film Swingers then you'll know all about this. Vince Vaughan aka Trent explains how women have a sixth sense to try to fuck you over when you've just got right again! Seems to be true!

So anyway, she had a dvd of mine and i have had to ring or text several times for the last week to try and get it back. Perhaps she likes me texting her, i don't know but it just got me really angry till i almost exploded on the phone yesterday. She was ill in bed but i just let rip about common courtesy and how shes just down right rude. Anyway, she just dropped it off now and i had so much i wanted to say today but either i was gutless or good sense prevailed. Not sure which yet perhaps i'll realise the answer to that question in a few months!

So my head is a minefield at the moment but i know what i do want to go to Newquay on Saturday and have a blast! At that is exactly what i'm going to do!!

Film wise - i've seen Creep - sick film but great!!
Undead - an aussie zombie film which is class!!!
Swingers - Funny as hell
Alice in wonderland! - disney head trip!
One night at Mccools - very hip funny film
A Better tomorow - awful
Lock stock - old skool

and then yesterday i watched the Woodsman. I was a little pissed and it was really heavy going but i loved it. Kevin Bacon is such an under-rated actor who i've always liked since seeing him in Murder in the first, sleepers etc etc. This film is a bout a convicted peadophile who is released into the community and how he manages to cope. Honestly it sounds dark but i will defintly buy this when it comes out on dvd - go see it!

Anyway, i gotta go play football and then watch Peter Manfredo (hopefully) kick some ass in the final of the Contender!!!!

Sin City - I wish i was a Sinner!

2005-06-06T09:49:00.000-07:00

Absolutely Class - 5 Stars without a doubt and the best looking picture in years. Contender for best ensemble cast ever and a riot of a film. Mega violent but really stylised. Fantastic, i mught even go again this week and its been a long time since i've seen a film twice at the flicks!!

Other news still seeing Natalie and quite happy if a little confused considering the last nine months. Bought Creep and Swingers on DVD and the guy in work looks like he has listened to the master and started performing!! Hooray!

Footy tonight - happy days - SAfe y'all

Sup, Sup with the whack playstation sup

Death on Two legs - Tearing me apart

2005-06-05T07:18:00.000-07:00

A week on from the MADNESS that was Manchester and i feel in a sufficeint state to say that i have recovered!!

On tuesday i went back to work and i was really tired, stayed in when i got home and watched enlgand meet columbia. Michael Owen has temporarily been taken off my shit list!

Wednesday - work was tough so i was tired again but Natalie came round and i made tea and we had a good time. She stayed until bout 11.30 and then left.

Thursday - heavy day in work really heavy - pressure situations at the mo! Came home and went bed and then played football. I played pretty well tonight was impressed by how much i have improved recently. James had to go to the hospital due to spraining his knee! OUCH and i nearly broke my finger, luckily it was just brusied.

Natalie came over bout ten and stayed till gone two cos i was off work on friday. Got up late and picked Josh and Cherrie up from town and bought a new karaoke game for the ps2. Came back and Natalie turned up and we all went bowling. Managed a 131 score which i thought wasn't bad!! After that we all came back and chilled out before i dropped Cherrie to my nans and me and Josh got a takeaway.

Saturday and i was knackered again so slept and then took Josh to mums to pick some stuff up and then went food shopping at Morrisons. Came home and Josh got in with his revision while i lazed around!!! Just watched Lemony snicket in the night

Sunday and i feel a little refreshed went for a run aroun Roath park this morning and am chilling now before cinema later! Hooray Sin City has arrived

The Mutts Nuts of a weekend!

2005-05-30T12:25:00.000-07:00

The Manchester trip!
Reporting in - Gav and Bex
Arrival time 4.30 Saturday - Time to get on it!

After the decent journey up, we met Owain, Anna (Owains missus) and Adam Taylor (EX-HBOSER) and had some grub before starting to get ready for a mad for it night out in Macnhester. We soon got on the beers and wine and got a taxi into town to get to (excuse spelling) Tri-becker. A weird bar with beds downstairs for chilling out on. It was ok and the beer was cool so it was happy days. We moved onto Spirit then on Canal street which is the gay village of Manchester. It was pretty rammed so went up upstairs and they were some quite fit straight women! After a few drinks in here, Owain had to go home but Me and Bex stayed out with Adam and his gay mates Daniel and Ed. We went to Viva La Fosse which was packed with blokes. I was a bit freaked out at first but after a gay guy told me i was dead sexy i laughed my tits off!!

Met two girls from Manchester, Jane and Becky and had a few drinks with them before moving on to the Mutts Nuts. The night was called Poptastic and the drinks were well cheap. By this point we were all getting pretty wrecked and i moved onto drinking Cheeky Vimto's which got me even more wrecked. The music was well cheesy and i managed to pull Kelly from Preston who was pretty smart! Easiest chat up line ever - Are you Straight?!! Happy days.

Left at about 2 and got a taxi home where stayed up for a while chatting before going to bed.

I woke up the next day and felt rough as but then i went back to sleep until 12 and when i got up then i felt fine. We watched Lemony Snicket and then got ready to go to town. Me, Owain and Bex caught the bus into town and went shopping. Bought a couple of CDs and a wicked new shirt. Then we went for food in the Printworks. We then bumped into Katy Prince (EX-HBOSER) and she came and had a drink with us. She looked really good and seemed happy. After this Bex had to go back as she was wrecked still but Owain and i went to see the Jacket. A paradoxical style film which touches on several emotions before delivering a fantastic finish - 5 star film if ever i saw one. Was so impressed nearly had me in tears at the end and certainly a film to think about for a wjile afterwards.

We then went back to the flat and grabbed all of ourstuff before dropping Owain at Anna's and then starting the long drive home so we would miss Mondays football traffic. We started off well and i was flying to be honest, then nightmare time! Bex all of a sudden said this was our turn off, i was just thrashing down the M5 and hadn't noticed our turn off but i followed Bex's instructions and turned off!! The wrong way! Ended up heading towards Warwick and having to go and buy a map and turn around. Cost us a bout 1 hour in time but.....this is where it gets interesting. When we got to Monmouth the A40 was closed due to a massive crash which we could of been caught up in if we had gone the other way. Scary stuff peeps! Fate is our saviour.

Dropped Bex off at about 2 and then made my way back. I got stopped by the police at CArdiff Bay as they were after a stolen Fiesta! I said well it aint this one and they left, still scared me a bit though. Back to the flat and straight to bed.

Monday - Got up about 12.30 and went to James mum's to help him out by getting her car. Came back watched a bit of the playoff final but it was rubbish so came back and then had a text from a girl i'd met a while back and had found her number before i left to go to Manchester. Well, we quickly organised a date and i was a bit nervous. We went to the cinema to see House of Wax. When i got there i couldn't see her but she was bang on time and she looked absoltuely stunning. Brown hair, brown eyes 5 foot 2 and shes just got something about her that made my stomach flip! The film wasn't very good and as soon as the film started i just wanted to talk and talk to her. Well, we've agreed to meet again and i can't wait just hope she's interested too. Feel nervous just writing this now!!!!

So thats all my news, hope everyones alright. Massive thanks to Owain and Adam for putting us up, Thanks to Bex for a funny weekend and happy days for Gav and his date!!! Au revoir!

Nice to see you to see you NICE!

2005-05-26T05:37:00.000-07:00

Another couple of weeks roll on by and i get ever closer to my 24th birthday. Works good but quite hard and life seems to just be ambling along as i try to decide what the hell is going on.

After i came off the painkillers, i went and got lashed on friday night and i mean really pissed. Can't remember how i got home at all cos me and Mat j had been drinking several bottles of white wine in the Philarmonic. Didn't pull or really try to be honest haven't got the energy to just be disappointed by the girls i meet. Need to find someone i like and is older than the bloody students in Cardiff.

Went and watched the football on Saturday in The George and bumped into loads of people i used to play football with in Uni. dunce was there and he made me laugh still as stupid as ever. The match was pretty good and after the excitement of the penalities we went bowling in Spin. I was crap but i was wrecked again. After this i went home so i grabbed some munch and then got back to watch the second half of the eurovision song contest. dolph came round for a bit cos he was wrecked too and ended up crashing on my floor!

Sunday and i was in bits so did nothing. My teeth have started hurting again so pissed off about and had to take some more bloody tablets! Watched The Punisher which was no where near as bad as i had heard it was, i actually thought it was pretty good and very dark. Then i watched Dark City which again was weird but good although the story was the same as the matrix.

Work this week has been tough i've been really tired and with my teeth as well i've been a bit grumpy. Also, i've had to do the hardest thing in my career so far, tell someone that unless they improve there out the door. Not nice at all. On Tuesday though i did a Bruce Forsyth performance for Play your cards right. I had a wicked time doing and everyone was cracking up laughing and getting well into it. Higher or lower and nothing for a pair not this game! I was laughing my head off and afterwards the reaction i had made me feel great. Everyone was telling me how good it was and that they'd really enjoyed it.

Last night, i got smashed watching the Liverpool game and then went to the welsh club. I'd never been in there before and i thought it was quite good so happy days. not feeling nice today though, hung over like a drunk in a liqour store. Never mind out again tonight and then the trip to Manchester on Saturday with Bex to go see Owain! Ding dang doo

Are you LOCAL?! What a kurfuffle?!

2005-05-16T12:24:00.000-07:00

Some news just in.....Well not just in as i should of put it in my previous posts but i just down right forgot!

I have offically entered the BBc Three sitcom writing competition. I finished the script last week and it was sent off through email. I had response back saying they'll look at it, so have to wait till the end of june before i know if i get through to the second round! Its about a Private investigator (insert investigate privates joke) and was jointly written with Lynne Austin from the Halifax.

I have now started writing my second sitcome piece which is set in a video shop and is going well at the moment so i will have to keep you updated. If anybody wants to read any of it let me know and i'll send it to you via email!

Rigjht, i been dentist and now i'm going to play football, then bed as knackered! Tara now!

Wisdom, who the hell called them wisdom all they do is hurt like 8888!!!

2005-05-14T04:47:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Teeth! Wisdon teeth in fact!! in the last week i've been in immesne pain, had my gum pop and lose about half pint of blood in space of 30 minutes where i couldn't get it to stop! My mam thought i was going to have to go hospital and it wasn't long before i did!!!

Wednesday morning i was down the emergency dentist with Don who had the same problem!! Man it was a long wait and when i did get in there it was more pain as they poked and prodded. Bleeding gums again and 14 pills a day!! When i got into work after taking the first 4 i was spaced to the max and nearly spewed!! Battled through it though! Got an infection where the teeth are coming through and got to go back next week to have some gum lasered out!!! Yummy!!!

The drugs are so strong that they make me feel really ill but like Daniel Bedingfield said I Gotta get through this! Work has been tough this week with my teeth hurting so much! But this cheered me up possible the funniest video i have evcer seen. If anyone watched Family guy then you should appreciate this. Its similar to a scene where Peter goes Oh no, no, no and the Kool Aid man comes through the wall and goes OH YEAH!!!! Please have a look!

I can't drink on this tablets which now means i haven't been on the lash for nearly 4 weeks but luckily some ladies have still been popping round!! HAHA! Yes, i'm turning into Deuce Bigalow. As long as i don't get a bird with turretts i'll be happy!!!

So, looks like the trip to Manchester is being finalised so get ready to rumble on that count! Thanks for the comments guys its good to be back. hope you like the titl i kinda figured it was apt seeing as i have now reached the 350 dvd mark!!!

Anyhow, town beckons cos i got nowt else to do, so enjoy!

DVD anyone??

2005-05-12T08:11:00.000-07:00

Ok Ok so I've been away for ages and I have lots of news. I have to admit that I went through a phase where I just couldn't bring myself to write on the blog. I wasn't enjoying it anymore and it had started becoming a chore, but I feel a bit different today and finally want to get some stuff down on the site.

Firstly, the new name. The old one needed to go as it didn't represent what I thought anymore. The 7 months that have passed since the dead duck day have obviously involved a lot of thinking, drinking, flirting, cavorting and general fun but also a lot of reflection. The last months I have had some mad times. Kent with my brother, back up here with my brother!!! I bought a new car - a lush Ford fiesta Flame. I got promoted in work to a team leader and its going really well. All of a sudden I had women falling at my feet which hasn't happened for a long time.

Been to the cinema loads recently too, Hitchhikers guide is crap, XXX2 was better than I thought it would be. The Interpretator was ok. Amytiville horror was class. On the dvd front, I've seen Kill Bill 1 and 2. The first is the best, yet the second one is still good. Mystic River is absolutely brilliant and Napoleon dynamite is really weird but very funny!!!

I have had a recent road trip too which was amazing. On Monday 9th May I went to Sheffield for the day with my dad and brother josh. We left at about 9 in the morning but a trip to Mcdonalds and petrol delayed us slightly, but we eventually got to Sheffield about 1. We went shopping in Meadowhall for about 4 hours and I spent some serious cash!!! I haven't been out on the lash for 3 weekends now so I have saved some money up!! Bought some new clothes, new shoes and dvds!! Then we went to Sheffield Indoor Arena to see Queen Live!!!

THE BEST CONCERT IN THE WORLD EVER!!! IT ROCKED!!!!

We were right at front, it was filmed for DVD and Brian May was about 2 yards in front of me at some points!! I loved every single second of it and had an amazing time. It was really emotional cos Freddie's mum was there and Paul Rodgers did Freddie proud! He was amazing and a real showman, fair play to him as he had some big shoes to step into and he never tried to be Freddie. He was just Paul Rodgers and he was freaking class!!! The set went on for about 3 hours and then I had to drive home!!! Made it back at about 3.30!! I was knackered and work the next day was real hard work!!!

Pictures should be available soon!

What else!!! Umm not to sure was seeing a girl who worked in the Philarmonic but that fizzled out fairly quickly. I'm well happy at the mo so that pretty much says it all!!

Owain - gotta pull my finger out to sort out the weekend up with you!!!
RT - Great to see you the other week you looked great but I was wrecked!!!

So chow for now, but I will return and I wont leave it as long this time!

New Blog Arrival very soon!

2005-05-06T10:31:00.000-07:00

Ger ready for a newly retitled blog in the next fewdayS

Cars Carnage and Crap

2005-04-10T10:26:00.000-07:00

Another week, another fable. Last weekend was pretty good. Friday night was messy and i cant remember much of it but dont really care either as apparently it kicked off a bit. nothing to do with me and it wasnt physical, just tetchy bloody women!!!

On the Saturday, i saw Charlotte Church in town and had a smile of here which made me laugh!! Then i met Josh and Cherrie (little bro and sis) and took them shopping, then food, then bowling and then down the park for ic creams! I was knackered and hung over but it was a really good day. Will actually repeat it soon i think as we managed to win lots of free games for the bowling down the bay!

On monday, my brother came down for a week and he came and played 5 a side with us. On the return journey my car decided to blow up and spit smoke, oil and water everywhere!! Had to get towed home, not impressed.

On Thursday night though, i went out on the lash again with Matt (Evans) and we got absolutely wrecked! Went to the Philly and was on fine form again. Ended up in Canton and got home bout 8am!

Friday was car hunt day and me mam helped me out and i managed to find a quality ford fiests flame limited edition zetec 1.4litre 16v engine. It awesome!! Metaalic black, cd player , leccy windows etc, but felt rough as hell all day. Watched Hitch in the night and laughed my head off. Will Smith is class!

Saturday - i had to go work for four hours then i had to pick up my new car! Get IN!! I love it and its made me feel well happy think this could be another significant turning point for the lad!!
Went to Mum's afterwards and showed the car off and then me and Matt went to Halfords to get some bits for the car. Then we decided we badly wanted to go out to town so we went and got battered in the Philly again!!! Pulled 4 birds and was on fire again, being single is all of a sudden class!!! Hooray! Ended up with party back at mine and bed about 5.30!

Sunday - Hanging all day, feel like crap, but the cars ace!!!

Weekends the only way through it!

2005-04-01T08:02:00.000-08:00

Since Scotland its been a fairly turbulent time I gotta be honest. Andrea messed with my head. 'I miss you etc' then only a week later she wasn't interested again. Not going to fall for that trap again, selfish is a word that easily springs to mind.

The grand slam weekend was good but slightly anti climatic after Edinburgh. Cardiff was rammed and a good day was had by all but at 8 I'd had enough and retired for the evening.

Played in a 5 a side football tournament the next day and we got to the final but lost 1 nil! Gutted.

I saw Constantine at the cinema and its class!! Best film I've seen at the flicks so far this year. Have watched loads of films with the a couple actually reaching 5 stars! Again, the first for the year. Oldboy was gross but amazing. Great story which has you thinking all the way to the end. City of God - gangsters in Brazil and a great time spanning story which echoes Goodfellas, fantastic. Million Dollar Baby, my god what a sad film. Nearly cried on several occasions, fantastic performances and a story that blows you out of the water.

Have bought loads of dvds recently including The Incredibles - really funny!

Last thursday I went out to town with the boys and it was fairly uneventful but I still didnt get home till 3.30! The next day wad Good Friday so I caught the train down to Reading where I was collected by my brother Matt and whisked off to Kent for the weekend. We went shopping at a massive complex call bluewater. Bought 5 dvds, a shirt and a sweatband!! (Owzy and Potter would be proud). Also bought the new England top with Rooney on the back! A strange choice you may ask for a Welshman. True, I understand it pissed a few people off but I lived in England for a long time and I have always followed the football sides of things cos Wales were never there!! Still have a loyalty to Wales but just love watching England in the footy!!

In the night we went out in Rocester, had a great laugh with Matt and his mate Andy. Went to loads of places before embarking on Casino's! A great little nightclub. 3 dance floors and loads of birds. We pretended to work for Zoo magazine and went round with a digital camera taking photos of loads of birds!! They all believed us and it was well funny! Pulled a few birds from it too! The next day we were all hanging as we only got to bed at 5 in the morning. Got up and Andy left, but me and Matt got straight back on it and went to the pub! We went a few places before going to the Post Office in Chatham to watch the match! England were good and we went off happy back to the bookies for Matt to collect his winnings!

In the evening we carried on drinking and then hit Rocester again. We were having trouble drinking as we both felt rough but we got through it with some Zambucas! Wrecked again and we went back to Casino's. It was Playboy bunny night and it was great. Got busted by a few girls for the Zoo routine but we didn't care and we just went round chatting up everyone!! Pulled and went back to Matts where I finally got to bed at 6.30! Class night!

The next day I was suppose to go back but couldn't be arsed so we went Harvesters for lunch. We were rank but we got some grub and pissed ourselves constantly! Back home and we slept before getting a Domino's pizza and watched some television.

Went home on the train on the monday absolutely wrecked!

Work was ok but one of the three people on secondment to slt in work have to go back to their normal job (could be me) so we will have to wait and see.

Out tonight on the lash then family weekend so lets have it!!!

2005-03-15T08:36:00.000-08:00

Edinburgh 2005

Show me the Way to Amarillo! Theme tune of the weekend!

2005-03-15T07:24:00.000-08:00

What a weekend, contender for one of the best times I've ever had and certainly eclipses the last 7 months of crap!

Saturday morning - I was picked up at 7.30 by Donaldo Aka Pooch (88) and we both then set off to Mat's aka 6-Inch (79) to collect him and Dolph aka Go go (4). The four of us then squeezed into the rented mint green Vauxhall Corsa and then made our way to Perry's aka Ut2 (69). Here we collected Chris aka Lopez (1), Paul aka Cheeky (7) and Stuart aka Girls (11). Just for the record I was G-Brow (12).

So the two cars then set off, Perry drove with me, Mat and Chris. Don drove car number 2 with Dolph, Paul and Stuart. I had made 2 CD's with requested songs from everyone, Tony Christie's Amarillo soon became the song of the weekend and was sung whether we went! After several stops and numerous sing alongs we arrived in Edinburgh at about 2.30pm! A very long way and big thanks have got to go to Don and Perry for doing all the driving.

We dropped our stuff off at Davey's house and started with a can of Tennants! From here we quickly got changed and made our way to The Standing Order. It was a JD weatherspoons pub which had been overtaken by the welsh. We watched the England game and started on the rounds. We kept the group in two lots and the beers were soon flowing! After the rugby had finished we moved onto Dr Jekyll's and Mr Hyde's. A great dungeonesque style pub with the most amazing entrance to a toilet ever! Straight from Harry Potter you have to push a bookcase to reveal the door to the gents!! I thought it was great and the amount of people who couldn't find the toilets was criminal.

After here, we jumped into a taxi and made our way to Teustchers (not sure on spelling). A few more beers in here and then the night was approaching. After this we went on The Western bar which was certainly an eye opener! When we left here we bumped into Owain who had an abosolute nightmare getting up to Scotland. He disappeared with some girls from Swansea and the lads all made it into Subway. This was a nightclub of sorts and was packed to the gills with Scottish women! I went on a mad one and pulled four different women and got two of their phone numbers!! We were drinking Metz and VK drinks cos they were keep and Mat had us drinking them bottle bong stylee! Perry said he nearly drowned! But then ended up on my own in the middle of Edinburgh, luckily Matt and Perry weren't far away and I found them in Mcdonalds. Got home after trouble getting a taxi about 1.30.

The next morning Don insisted on waking everyone up at about 7 o'clock! Dolph wasn't impressed. Anyway, with 8 people to shower and change it took a while for us all to get ready. We went and had a massive fry up in the coffee Pot and then made it back to flat so Don could put his kilt on. We then got on a bus into Edinburgh town centre again. The pubs weren't serving booze yet so we had a little scenic walk around and saw the castle and the cathedral. It was a wicked place and I have fallen in love with the city and will definitely going back.

We soon found a pub serving some alcoholic beverages and then made it back to Grass Market where we entered the Black bull. We met up with a few lads who we knew from back home and had a right laugh watching an evil drinking game. Dolph got caught up in it and had to down a pint which nearly made him barf! Don's kilt caused hilarity when I took a photo up it, but this has been deleted all evidence of the photo has been destroyed! It was still one of the funniest things ever though!!

After the black bull, we made it back to Teustchers and the beers flowed way to quickly for my liking. Pint after pint was consumed and the match got underway. Wales were awesome in the first half and the funniest chant of the day was 'Its like watching Brazil' We all laughed!! I got talking to a lovely lady called Sue who took my number for future reference and then I had the two girls from last night both texting me as well! Happy days!

We made our way to Edwards soon after and moved onto JD's and cokes! Ouch! When we left here, we tried to get a taxi back to Subway. Instead the taxi driver told us to walk as it was only round the corner!! That was well funny! When we got into Subway it was just full of welsh supporters watching a re-run of the game, but drinks were really cheap again so we didn't care. Mat tried to get everyone involved in a finger push up competition which really hurt. Owain turned up with Curly and decided to tattoo everyone with his name in Japanese! Its still on my arm as he did it with permanent marker! Katy arrived from the previous night and I spent some time with her, whilst dancing and drinking myself silly. Chris soon perked up when Dolly Parton 9 till 5 came on and his energetic dancing soon had everyone cracking up! Dolph had to go home after being sick out of his nose because Mat had got him drinking Zambuca's! Everyone else had gone again and the hardcore ones remained, me, Perry and Mat. We ended up in Mcdonalds again and had everyone singing Amarillo! Mcdonalds should of closed about 2 hours before this but they just kept serving, but had asked us not to sit down. We did!

Finally got home to find Dolph had hidden my duvet and I couldn't find it anyway. Turned out that the Turner brothers had found it and used it as a mattress! I was bloody freezing!

We again woke up early and started to pack up and get ready. After stops at Greggs and Mcdonalds for food we set off again. After about an hour I started to feel really rough and had to get out the car and spew on the side of the road. The two cars beeped their horns and found it hilarious!! Trouble was it made Chris really ill too and he had to meditate for about half an hour before we made it to the service stations!

The journey home was really hard work, but we kept singing and eventually got back just in time to drop the cars off. I made it back to the flat at about 6.30. I tried to sort some things out but didn't have the energy. Andrea was online and we had a quick chat and it turns out she's really missing me!?! Had to go and play football then with Mat, Perry and Chris. After 2 losses and a draw, we weren't expecting to win and certainly not 14-1! Mat finally scored and then scored another 5! I got 5 and Chris got 4. Awesome performance which topped off an amazing weekend! Too tired now though and sleep is really needed!

Check out the photos and thanks for a great time boys!

G-Brow number 12!

Breif history of last week!

2005-03-15T07:09:00.000-08:00

Last week was certainly the quiet before storm. Preparations were under way for Edinburgh and work was just coasting along. Saw Hide and Seek with Robert De Niro at the cinema on Tuesday night with Becky Kennedy. We had a right laugh even though the film wasn't up to much. Caught up on all the gossip.

Wednesday was a quiet day with my late in work followed by watching The Apprentice, which is the best tv programme around at the moment.

Thursday was a wicked night. It was the SLT night out for winning Team of the year. We went to Mamma Mia's in Canton and the food was lovely. I had squid, steak and hot fudge cake. Not at the same time obviously. With about £35 pound a head, there was a lot of booze available and the wine was soon flowing. I had a great laugh with a lot of peopl who i woudln't necessarily see socially, and it made a really good change. different conversations and Karen doing Ali G style rapping when she was wrecked!!! I was a good boy after and went home instead of going to town. Turned out to be a wise choice!

Friday was Comic Relief and i was rushed of my feet in work organising a day of events!! I dressed up like a lady with a drss and bikini top which raised some extra cash and the final total looked at about over £500 so i was well chuffed. In the evening, it was Mat's birthday so i made my way round to his gaff at about 7, and then we made our way into Central bar. Perry and don both had to drive the next day so they were sensible and only had a couple. I left Lloyds bar at about 12.30 and went home to get some much needed sleep ready for the weekend ahead!

Photos of Mamma Mias are available here!

The Truth laid bare - where have I been?

2005-03-06T03:28:00.000-08:00

Hello! It's been a while!! 2 weeks infact so I certainly will not bore you with the details of what I have been up to. I'll just pick out the highlights and also try to explain why I haven't updated!

I made a decision about a week and half ago that I didn't want to see Andrea anymore, not as a friend, not as nothing. I felt it was the best thing for my sanity and possibly everybody else that knows me! So I laid it down and told her. Great, I thought its all sorted and I've made the right decision. Last, Saturday obviously it was Rugby day again, so town beckoned.

I went to Matt's and drank, went to Perry's brothers house and drank and then went to Don's house party and drank!!! Then we went to town and performed a mini pub crawl keeping away from the Philly for as long as possible. We went to the Lava Lounge, The Yard, Bar Copa and Bar is it, then finally popped into the Philly. I walked around and then came back to the group and guess who was there talking to Don, Andrea. I kinda blanked her and just got on with it, but later on in the night we spoke and she started talking about not liking seeing me with other girls. Well, I said that is going to happen, cos we're single. The conversation continued and she ended up coming back to mine. The next morning we talked and it came down to the fact that she wasn't sure what she wanted.

My view was that she wanted all the little bits she liked but not the rest. She wanted the watching films together, and going out to the cinema, the cooches but to be honest I was starting to miss her when she wasn't around. Anyway, she text me last Wednesday and after all she'd said she decided that we shouldn't talk about getting back together. I immediately said that I didn't want to see her at all then. But, then for the last couple of days its almost as if I feel guilty for having to shut her out of my life. We used to be best friends, now we can't even have that because of the past. I've been a bit down due to this and just haven't wanted to update the blog. To be honest, I was thinking of stopping the blog as it has served its purpose?!! Will have to have a think!

Anyway, went out on Friday with new shirt and new jeans and managed to pull so my confidence is back up where it belongs and I'm well looking forward to the Scotland road trip next week. My boys have got my back always and they've tried to protect me from the Andrea situation. Hopefully, with me and her being away for the majority of weekends through March and April I wont see her for a while and I can sort my head out again!

Seen loads of films recently, Bubba Ho-Tep is seriously weird!! Coach Carter is cheesy as fuck! The Waterboy is well funny. Man on fire is ok, but a bit wishy washy. Baise-Moi is basically a hardcore porn but it had a cinematic release! Wimbledon is good and Kirsten Dunst is so fit!

Talking of fit, I am slowly becoming obsessed with Edith Bowman after seeing her on fame academy! Would love to ask her out!!! Yeah right!

Also, have about 2 to 3 pages to write and I will of finished my first ever film script. 22 thousand words!

Avoid Miss Millies like the plague!

2005-02-20T08:22:00.000-08:00

Thursday - Got up early and got me barnet chopped, then went to town to get some new contact lens. Then, met me mum for a coffee before I had to go to work at 12. Work was ok, just got on with it. Finished at 8 and then came home and watched Resident Evil: Apocalypse. Very good, I was pleasantly surprised. Both James and I thoroughly enjoyed it!

Friday - Work again and I just ploughed on through as I was quite tired. In the evening, I got picked up by Don at about 5.30 and we went straight to Mat's. Had a right laugh and got well on the way before getting into town and going to Callaghans. Don, Mat, dolph and Chris were out and we soon moved onto the Gatekeeper. Then onto, Copa and Bar Is it. At this point, the wine started flowing and the drinking games commenced! Chris danced on his own in the middle of the stairs, I had to pull my trousers down and sit in me pants!! Went on to the Philly then and I was pretty wrecked. Ended up leaving just before the end and getting a cab back to McDonners!! Chicken burger then home for about 3!

Saturday - Got up and went to work and it wasn't too bad. Didn't really have to do much and it soon finished and I came home. Watched the football and generally slobbed around in a hungover state. James came back and we got on the beers as we watched Man utd beat Everton and then we got ready to go to town. Yes, James was actually coming out on the piss!!! We got the bus and met Lee Gregory. He was down from Birmingham with his missus so we embarked on a mini bar crawl. Started off in the Gatekeeper and the onto Edwards which was full of women!!! I wanted to stay but we left and went to O'neills. Then finally we hit the Philly again. We didn't stay long as James was pissed and we were starving. We went and got food from Miss Millies and headed home. Watched Resi Evil again and then went bed. Woke up at 4 in the morning feeling horrible and the food soon came back! God damn Miss Millie's!

Sunday - woke up and felt ok, except got bad Wisdom teeth pains today. Haven't done much accept slob round the house. Quite tired and I'm going for food at me mothers later, so just chilling!

Memories, all alone in the moonlight

2005-02-16T09:15:00.001-08:00

Ok, got a few bits to go on about today so I'll make the weekend brief as I did nowt!

Saturday - hungover - stayed in all day and drank beer watched rugby and football! Went to bed pickled!
Sunday - Much of the same!

Wales won hooray! England lost Hooray!

Monday - The dreaded Valentine's day - My first single version for 4 years. Its not a nice day, made me feel quite depressed and lonely. Didn't get a card but didn't send a card either. Work was fine but just felt a bit horrible. Me and Andrea also used to go mad and buy each other loads of stuff and I missed that this year. In the evening, I did very little and ended up watching the greatest love songs ever which probably didn't help.

Tuesday - Work was again pretty good. Still team leadering so its going well. In the evening, I went to the flicks and watched Meet the Fockers. I thought it was quite good, pretty funny and generally a not bad film!!

Wednesday - Work was quite busy today with loads of meetings, but I've survived. It's been one week since I had any contact with Andrea and it does feel strange. Everyone told me not to bother with her but I honestly felt like I should give her a chance and see if we could just be friends. Perry said 'you'll be waiting for her to text wondering if she will etc' and I have to admit that I have a bit. The three weeks where we saw each other quite a lot was cool, I had a good laugh but it go to the point when it was getting weird because we hadn't spoken about the situation. I liked having her around again but now I have missed her. One good thing that has happened is that because I've had contact with her I'm no longer worried about going into town or the cinema. Before, I used to get really tense, now I don't even think about it. Life is good at the mo, and I haven't let this get me down so I don't intend to either. RT - Nothings happening and i'm fine so don't worry!! Actually, had a Valentines card today, two days late. Can't find out who it is from though! Texted the usual suspects but either no-one's admitting or it wasn't them!!

Generally though work is very good, the house is always safe as, all my mates are doing well and the weekends are usually fairly eventfull so I can't really complain, although getting a new better upgraded girlfriend wouldn't hurt!! Not going to start looking though as you never find the good ones that way!

Yes Matthew we both have heads

2005-02-12T02:59:00.000-08:00

The last week has been hard work! Really tired after the manic weekend and never really recovered until Thursday! A quieter weekend this week as I have to save some cash for a trip to Edinburgh on Saturday March 12th for a certain game of rugby! The BIG C boys go on a road trip! Watch out world!

Monday was ok. I was still really tired and I was in charge of Paul's team again for this week. It went pretty much as planned. Did a team meeting etc. When I came home I went running, and then nipped down the video shop to rent out Anchorman. Very funny film. I didn't really like Will Ferrell but I've recently started to like his work! Funniest bit has to be Jack Black's cameo!

Tuesday - Still exhausted! Work was starting to pick up and I don't think I even had a break on Tuesday. Had loads of stuff to do, so just cracked on. Paul told me I was doing an amazing job and he couldn't ask for anymore so I was well chuffed. In the evening, me and Matt went to watch Oceans 12. The cinema was rammed and the film wasn't even that good. Real let down. Tried to out smart the original and it was never going to happen. Got home and went straight to bed.

Wednesday - Tired beyond belief now. The work load is mad. I really thought that it wouldn't of been to hard to do the job, but respect to the TL's. Rich Hanner (Graham) said to me 'welcome to my world'! Damn right Rich. Managed to get a few side by sides done and everything appears to be going well. In the evening, I was supposed to go to the pictures with Andrea but the queue was mental so we stayed at home and watched the football. Shit really shit! Watched Saw after this, and I really liked it but...... I never guess twists in films because I'm usually so engrossed in it that I miss the tell tale signs so imagine my surprise when I guessed the films final twist after only two minutes! Gutted. The ending then was a major anti climax and I didn't enjoy the film as much as I should of.

Thursday - Managed to have some quality sleep!! Late night today so got into work about 11. Ate loads today not sure why, was just bloody starving all day. Had so much work today thought I wasn't going to be able to get through it. Because one of the other team leaders has been of sick for the last two weeks I've kinda covered their team too. So I had to catch up with all the work they hadn't done. So I had to do loads of call monitoring! Boring as hell but quite funny. The late night went well with no escalations and on the way home I had a well funny feeling. I was knackered, really tired but all of a sudden I was just well happy with what was happening! Work has been amazing this week and makes me even more determined to keep trying. Got in and got changed straight away to go to Bar Billabong with Aimee. We didn't sing just had a drink and a chat. Then got some food and came back to watch a bit of TV. I was just too tired and I had to go to bed in the end!!!

Friday- All the TL's were off on an away day today from 11, so I was in charge! Wow! All the teams everyone. I enjoyed it but it was hard work. I kept myself busy with the quiz and the fantasy rugby, and I think I did a good job. No diasters anyway. When I came home I chilled for a bit before getting changed and getting a bus into town. Met up with Matty J and the TL posse. Had a great laugh. Lisa cracks me up, Wendy also comes out with some gems and it was the worst time I'd seen Jonny Evans out. He was a great laugh, going on about Paddy being his hero! Hamer was on top form again to and seeing as he was paying for all the drinks, everyone was happy. Don turned up as did Perry and Paul. Then we went to the Philly. Bumped into one of my old mates from Tesco, Sarah and then just drank more booze till I was wrecked and got a taxi home to McDonners and got a massive chicken burger. Me and Matt said are goodbyes and walked the rest of the way home.

Not to bad today thought I might be a bit rough, but I have survived. Sleep helped and I'm ready for a mad sporting weekend! Bring it on! Oh and RT nothing is happening with me and Andrea, I promise!! I will keep you informed though ok?!

As long as we BEAT the English!!

2005-02-06T06:03:00.000-08:00

Tiring week!!!

Monday -Work. Watched dodgeball!
Tuesday - Work, then watched Arsenal vs Man utd! Good game but those damn Manc's.

Wednesday - Has my own team in work, as I had been put in charge of one the credit teams for a period of 3 weeks. Had a nightmare when I got in as two the other team leaders had phoned in sick and the other was not in till 11. So I had to run round that a mad man for the first 2 hours trying to sort everything out!! Survived though and I had a good day! Got home and went running for the second time this week and then Bex came over. We went and got some food before going to watch CREEP! This film is the sickest thing I've seen in a long time. It scared the crap out of me and made me feel that I was going to be sick!! Honestly, graphic beyond compare and the blood soaked hospital scene will really tip you over the edge!! Went to bed bout 10 as I was knackered!

Thursday - Started work at 11 and it was going really well. Had to take a few escalated calls but I coped and at the end of the night it had gone really well. Finished at 8 and made me way home for a quiet night in. James had helped me out by working late so I cooked tea when we got back and then watched Con Air.

Friday - Another manic day for me in work. Organised a sweepstake, a fantasy rugby incentive and a weekly quiz! I was busy. The quiz was wicked. Me and James had spent ages on it and then I send it out. But I didn't send the questions, I sent the bloody answers!! Had to rapidly write a new quiz and get it sent out!! In the night, I came home and chilled out. Andrea came over and we watched Dodgeball and Super Size Me. Fantastic film, and a real message to the world that Ronald Mcdonald really is a scary mo-fo.

Saturday - Match day. Andrea dropped me to Perry's house where Don and Parker were already drinking. We went to town and went straight to Lloyds bar and watched the first half of the Scotland game. Then we moved on for food and went to the Model Inn. Mum and Dad came down into town and met us so we all got the drinks in and started to prepare. The match was awesome and to win on home soil was the best feeling ever! We were jumping up and down and going mad. Hugging random people and everyone was well pissed! Went to the Philly afterwards and got battered on wine but ended up back at home at bout 12.30. I was finished at this point and crashed almost straight away. Had a wicked day today, the boys were great and we had a wicked laugh. Chatted to a couple of lovely ladies too. One that looked like Greg Rusedski's missus. I freaked her out by guessing her job exactly in one guess! Should of seen her face, I said I read her mind. Ha ha ha. Got us talking though.

Sunday - Got up and went to Perry's to pick up my stuff. Stayed there for an hour and then dropped the boys into town. After that I came home and Andrea rang me to see if I wanted to go for a sunday lunch. Ended up in Thornhill and the food was quality. It was a whole bloody chicken!!! I was stuffed but still had room for afters! Came home and watch 50 first dates again. Really tired but have had a wicked time of recent. Watching the Village later, seen it before but not since the cinema.

Candle, Both, Ends, Burning

2005-01-30T09:39:00.000-08:00

Ouch. The last few days have taken there toll and I'm a bit fragile now. Food and Superstars beckons!

Wednesday - Did my late night in work and it was alright. One mental customer but not too bad. Went over Andrea's gaff after work for a drink. It was a nice place and it was good to catch up. Didn't leave till very late though, so knackered the next day.

Thursday - Slightly hungover and a bit weak, I went into town to meet me Mum for a coffee and have a look around. Didn't really look round as gave up after 2 shops. Went home and had a sleep before going to football. One of the lads had a real bad injury and the noise it made was sickening. The poor guy went white as a sheet and I had to drive his car to the hospital for him!!Andrea popped over a quick chat later on and then promptly fell asleep!!

Friday - Work was harmless. Got home and had another little kip! Got ready to go out for the SLT night out and made it to Matt's house at about 7. Went to the Bay with Dolph and we also picked up Tim. Went to Rosie's bar and started on the wine and then moved onto Mama Almafi. We had a table booked but apparently we had booked it at the wrong restaurant so it all kicked off! Very embarrassing for us as we ended up being wrong! Great food though and loads of wine so I was well on the way. Went into town then and went straight to the Philly. Pulled almost straight away and was happy for the rest of the night! Was very drunk in the end and got to bed at about 3.30.

Saturday - woke up and went to pick up my coat from Matts house and then drove to Andrea's house. Went into town and had a shop and some food. Bought an Animal T- shirt and a wicked jacket top from Legends. Came home and watched The Bourne supremacy and got ready for quiet night in. Then Matt text me and before you knew it I was in town drinking wine in the Gatekeeper. For the second night running, I got very drunk on wine! The Philly was bouncing again and the wine flowed. A few other HBOS'ers were there, so we all had a drink and a laugh.
Andrea was in the Philly and ended up meeting her afterwards.

Sunday - Battered! Can't go on anymore, need sleep and food. Superstars is starting. Will put photos up from Friday later!!

Weirdness amongst the weird

2005-01-25T08:58:00.000-08:00

Well, things certainly seem to change rather rapidly in my life at present. From being totally cool and set up with how my life was going. Slight twist!

Sunday - Felt rough as i dropped Josh to work. A double hangover for my efforts. Arranged to meet Andrea and sort out the bank stuff. Met in Bar Billabong and it was alright. Bit weird but wish we'd had longer to talk to be honest. After that she dropped me back, i watched The Bourne Supremacy. Class film.

Monday - Work was slow, probably cos i was so tired. But i just got on with it. A few people mentioned i was quiet but i just had stuff to get on with. In the evening, i was going to watch Deep Blue Sea but after shopping at Tesco's i just ended up chatting on the pc. andrew Weaver rang me which was cool. He seems to be doing alright back in Hereford! Get your ass back to the big C Weave!!

Tuesday - Work was ok. I was supposed to be in charge but i didn't have to do much. So, supposed to be going the cinema tonight. No idea what though.

2005-01-25T08:56:00.000-08:00

Situations and concerts, Performance and cocktails

2005-01-20T11:58:00.000-08:00

A lot to get through as I've been really lazy. Most of the week was fairly uneventful to be honest.
Monday - Half day, tried to get hair cut and failed. Watched Collateral on DVD.
Tuesday - Work, and then the cinema with Matty J to watch Team America. Quite funny in places but not what I expected. Probably only give it 2 starts out of 5, just too many random jokes.
Wednesday - late night but booked a half day, as really tired as finding it hard to sleep at night. Came home, had a lie down, Bolan popped over for a chat. Hadn't seem him for ages so it was good to chat films!! Then watched Exeter vs Man united which was interesting.
Thursday- Looks like I'm going to be doing some more Team leadering in work. Am having a team for 3 weeks, so will get a lot of experience and I'm looking forward to it!! Also, SLT won best team of the year at the town hall, thanks to a nomination by me!! Hooray! Went to football afterwards and was absolutely knackered, but didn't have work on Friday!! Watched Home Alone and then went bed.
Friday - Slept!! Caught up with some much needed sleep. Just bummed around the house till James got back and we both and went to get our hair cuts. Then I had some grub and popped off to Matty J's house. Started drinking straight away and Vodka shots were soon being cracked open. Off to the Claude where we met Gemma and Emma. Some evil wine shots and then off into the Philly. Well, Matt and Don screwed me over playing drinking games and I was wrecked. Don popped off to meet someone so me and Matt went downstairs and had a dance. Then, I saw Andrea. It was cool we chatted for a long time. She seems to be getting on ok. At this point, I can't really remember much else or nothing to do with the ride home. Got home on my own at about 1.30 - 2??

Saturday - Tsunami concert day. Felt ok considering last nights excusrions, but the hangover soon reared its ugly head when I went to town. Met Darren (Arch) , Dad, Josh and Ian, and had a quick beer for getting into the stadium. The concert was great, and I do have some pictures but the quality isn't great!! The beer tent was great, you bought tickets and went to another place to just pick them up. We bought about 30 tickets and just kept drinking. The millennium stadium also had started to spell like a massive ganja smoking party. The mist above our heads was insane with everyone skinning up. The concert started with some crap unknowns and then Catherine Jenkins. Keane were next and they were awesome. Other highlights - Kelly Jones singing on his own, no band just him. The Manic's were beyond good. The 5th time I've seen them. Feeder were banging and everyone had a mad jump up and down to Buck Rogers. Lemar was good,m Craig David not bad. Heather Small - amazing voice. Charlotte Church, Brian Mcfadden, Aled Jones, Liberty X - crap. Embrace were very good, and Clapton and Jools Holland rocked the roof off at the end. Apparently, I was on TV but I'll have to take my sisters words for it! 10 pints later and the concert finished and so was I. Went home and promptly went straight to bed!!

Additional - Booked tickets to see Queen live in Sheffield. Can't wait!!

Sunday - to be cont'd.....

2005-01-16T14:43:00.000-08:00

My little Cousin, Abbie

What a difference a day makes!

2005-01-16T14:17:00.000-08:00

I'm writing this on a Sunday evening cos there's balls on television and I'm too tired to do anything else, but I feel different. Why? Read on!

Tuesday - Went to the cinema in the evening and saw White noise. Utter tosh, which was a shame cos the start of it was very promising. Although, I should of known better to expect anything as it did have Michael Keaton in it! It was a ok, I suppose but the ending is really poor.
Work was fine.

Wednesday - Late night in work and went bed early as very tired, First week back in after being ill is starting to take its toll! Also, my Auntie gave birth today to my little baby cousin Abbie.

Thursday - Work was again not bad. Although I did get turned down for a job internally and I never even got an interview which I was a little bit disappointed about. But this time round, I felt something different. I didn't even think about it. I didn't react at all. I just let it pass because all of a sudden I'm feeling like I have finally stepped over that hurdle which was obstructing me getting on with being happy. I went straight to football afterwards and I found it really hard going. Coughed my guts up as the chest infection still hasn't quite finished. Came home and just chilled. Watched Phenomenon with JT. Great film, I really do love it even though it does make me want to cry hysterically!But I didn't his time round. After, Me and Nora watched Bad Education. A Spanish film about child abuse, trannies and a betrayal. Very weird. Very graphic, and slightly unpleasant, but not bad at all!!

Friday - I had a half day. I cracked on with work. Got shouted at a lot down the phone and then had to restrain myself from laughing hysterically. Some guy wasn't happen with his decision so he said 'Do you watch Little Britain?' I replied ' Yes'. He came back with 'well it sounds like a case of computer says no!'. I cracked up, made me really laugh, and then I trotted off and met me Mum. James Dad had arrived to stay for the weekend, so I had a quick hello before going into town. I took Mum to Henry's for lunch. Really nice food and a good laugh. We went shopping afterwards and I bought a present for Abbie. Went home and had a chat with Frank (James's Dad) and then got ready to go out. Bex's birthday party was down the bay, so I went to meet the gang at Bar Salt. Had a great laugh with Bex. She liked her little Tigger that I'd bought her, and the food in signor Valentino's was class. Owain turned up and everyone had a good laugh. I got home afterwards bout 11.20 and The Leavers family had descended. James's sister (Rhian) was there now to (I'd seen her shortly just before I left, but didn't really have time to even say hello). Had a few drinks and watched some Peter Kay. Got to say that Rhian is lovely, and my gobsmacked face when I saw her probably made me look like a right fool!!

Saturday- Has to go to work, but I was feeling so good about myself now, that I was ready to take over the world. Finished and came straight back for the football. Liverpool lost to the Manc's. Owain popped into the pub before he left and then I immediately went to my Uncle and Auntie's to see my new cousin. She is gorgeous! Abbie Louise Edwards. I had a cooch and was very happy holding onto her as she slept. My Uncle thought my present was great, so was chuffed with that too. Made my way back to the flat and just had a quiet evening in. Watched the Butterfly Effect and drank! Got a bit tipsy and finally went bed about 1.30 after some more Peter Kay.

Sunday - Woke up early (mainly cos Frank had woke me up) and we went to the bay (J, N and Frank) and then went to pick up Rhian before going for a great pub lunch. Frank paid which I felt a bit guilty about as I'm not even family but he insisted for being so hospitable! What can I say except cheers. We all came back to the flat for a bit, before I had to pick up Josh so he could have his new amp and I could have a cooked dinner with the folks. Rhian was looking great today and I have got to say that I've got a bit of a crush!! Nora thinks its funny.

So, I'm happy with every aspect of my life at the moment. One week after being really down because I'd been so ill and tied to the flat. Now, I feel great and I'm so positive its scary. I'm not going to let this feeling escape me, cos I got a busy week and the stadium gig at on Saturday.
Happy with myself. Wow, perhaps this year will be the year of Evans after all!!

2005-01-11T10:59:00.000-08:00

My new guitar! Worth every penny!

Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be live forwards

2005-01-11T10:35:00.000-08:00

Last few days have been interesting to say the least.
Sunday - I woke up about 10ish and got straight up as I didn't feel to bad at all, in fact for the first time in a while (before my illness) I felt bloody good! I made my way to the Hughes residence to meet Aimee, except she hadn't even got out of bed yet. So I spent an hour and half catching up with Katie. It was great to see her has we were always great friends in work and I do miss her a lot. As I arrived at the house, my feeling of goodness was shattered by a text from the ex. Timing couldn't of been more apt! Just as I feel good, knock me back down again. It was to do with stuff for the bank which I thought she'd sorted out ages ago, obviously not. The weirdest thing of all was that Nora had a dream that I was going to receive some contact from her. I swear she is a white witch!!

So anyway, left the Hughes and went into town. I went and bought my new guitar and amp, spent more than I thought I would but it was worth it. I love it to pieces and it looks ace in my room!! Josh sorted me out with a discount too so its all good. After this Josh met me and Aimee for a bit cos he was on lunch and then we went round a few more shops. Bumped into Matt James and Perry in town which is unusual as I never see anyone I know. Went and bought the Butterfly effect from virgin and then nipped back to Aimee's to drop her off.

Then back to town to get Josh and my guitar, then off to Rhoose to see the folks. Had a good laugh at my mums and had a wicked roast dinner. Tried out the new guitar and amp and said that Josh could have my new one and I'd have his. It was worth every penny to see his face. Just remember when your famous mate. Made my way home and some twat knocked my wing mirror off and never stopped! The run of luck continues. When I got home I watched Old School. Never seen it before and fell around laughing. Thought it was great.

Monday - Had to go to work for the first time since December 17th. Was ok actually and everyone welcomed me back. Actually had a good day. Put it this way it made a change from staying in the bloody house. When I got home I had to play on the guitar! Then I ended up watching Old School again and then School of Rock.

Films of 2004

2005-01-10T13:59:00.000-08:00

Decided to put a bit of a different spin on this update. After returning to work today, I picked up my calendar which had the films that I had watched on it last year. So I have decided to put a review together of what was hot and what was not!!

After reading a few comments from other people in various magazines, it seemed that they thought that 2004 was a poor year for films. Well, it may have been for new films but I have managed to watch quite a lot of decent films.

This list is the 5 star films that were released in 2004. I saw all of these at the cinema and in my opinion were worthy of top rating.

Lost in Translation - Beautiful film where nothing actually happens. The relationship that blossoms is amazing, and this film makes we want to visit Japan even more. My second favorite film of the year. I can't fault it in anyway. I know a lot of people who have seen this and it has gone over their head. It's a shame cos its about real life and something we all fear, loneliness.

The Last Samurai - Tom Cruise kicking ass. Not the big war film it was billed as, but a beautifully crafted film which understands the backbone of Japanese society. Respect, loyalty and trust. Great fight scenes, but also a real look at a completely different culture. Stand out moment is the fight scene that ends in a draw.

Eternal sunshine of the Spotless Mind - Best film of the year. Jim Carrey puts in the performance of a lifetime. Kate winslet is superb. The story is so out there, yet so true and deeply personal for anyone that has been through a relationship break up. Please see this film if you haven't, as it will make you think really hard and I'm talking days after!!

Hero - Jet Li. Amazing action. A great story. Beautiful images and cinematography to die for. Needs a repeat viewing, roll on the DVD launch!

Bourne Supremacy- A sequel that beats the first film. Matt Damon as the only spy in History who actually thinks instead of using stupid gadgets and a car chase that creams any other! Beyond clever and any film that injures its main star half way through the film and makes him limp for the rest of it is great. James Bond, who the hell's James Bond.

I, Robot - Will Smith in the only summer blockbuster that delivered. Very similar in tone to Minority Report and equally as clever. The second time I watched this I thought it was even better than the first time.

School of Rock - Hilarious, has to be watched numerous times to pick up on everything and Jack Black rocks even when he's not at 100%!!!

Football Factory - viciously violent but morally tragic. Plus a British film!!!

Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events - Jim Carrey again in the darkest kids film I've ever seen. Will need to a repeat viewing to pick up on some of the more clever points. A kids film where the majority of the cast die!! Bring on the sequel!

The rest of this list are films that I have borrowed or bought and watched last year!
American History X - Wow! Kerb sandwich anyone?
Kids - The realest film ever - Not for the faint hearted.
A Bronx Tale - De Niro's directorial debut
Finding Nemo - Pixar nail it again.
Irreversible - French, freaky and damn complicated!
Tigerland - Colin Farrell's breakthrough.
Amores Perros - 3 stories, over lapping, reality!
Spirited Away - Japanese, animated, damn weird!
21 Grams - Oscar winning, complicated and a bit scary!!

As for shit films, don't ever watch these -
Four Rooms - Contender for worst film ever
Hellboy - AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!
Godsend - De Niro, what were you thinking?
Secret Window - Predictable, Stephen King, Crap
Starsky and Hutch - Walked out of cinema for first time ever
Dreamcatcher - Awful, awful, awful, Stephen King, Crap

2005-01-09T15:05:00.000-08:00

HBOS PARTY

Burn Baby Burn Disco Inferno!

2005-01-09T02:40:00.000-08:00

The Ball! The day had finally arrived.
I was picked up from my house at about 5 by Owain. I was already suited and booted, but Owain wanted to watch the rugby over the Albany so I had to go and sit in the pub like a right tit. Anyway, the rugby was alright and we soon made our way to the Potter's residence.

Steve and Potter were ready and watching the Plymouth Argyle match, so Owain had to get ready. Well, the cameras soon appeared and the gang had bought thongs from H and M, and had to get them in every photo that was taken. Juvenile but damn amusing. The taxi soon arrived and dropped us to Jury's where we meet the rest of the rabble. Near enough straight into the CIA and the place looked good. Moulin rouge stylee! We managed to get a table right near the food which was a bonus and the hilarity commenced. The free wine flowed, shame the food was rubbish.

The entertainment started and the Moulin rouge dancers were on stage, and a great Nicole Kidman look-a-like performed a few songs from the film. The Potter brothers at this point had decided to get all made up and the eye lash extensions and lipstick made them look great!

I started to wander at this point and said hello to the usual lot. Matt J looked great with his scarf look. Perry was happy as Larry (Who's Larry?), don looked good in his Kilt. BBM wasn't wrecked, Rob was battered beyond belief. Becky looked fantastic and everyone else seemed to be having a great time. The real band started and played some great 70's stuff and the dance floor soon filled up. The chocolate fountains started to get the ladies excited, and the bucking camel soon had punters queuing up.

Andrew was a bit pre-occupied with a certain milf and Steve entertained me for a slow dance which certainly turned a few heads! This one girls face was fantastic, and I think she was really quite scared. Steve just pissed himself laughing. After the band, a cabaret guy came on and sang for quite a while and although he was fairly cheesy it was pretty good. At this point, the dancing was reaching Disco Inferno proportions. When the DJ came on, a dance off beckoned and I was first into the circle to make a complete arse of myself. Karen's boyfriend Pete then did the splits, Potter did a Dad dance, Steve did some break dancing and Aarti just laughed at us all! I managed to get a magic wand from somewhere and I did spank a few people (Apologies to RT!).

The night was drawing to an end, and the lights soon came up but not before Dolph managed to trick me twice with the 'what's that?' trick. I felt like a fool. Rich Hanner just laughed.

Well, Owain and the Potter bros left the building and we were picked up by Owain's sister. Finally got home bout 3 ish and I had a great time! THE PHOTOS ARE HERE!!!!!

2005-01-08T03:30:00.000-08:00

Bit of a kurfuffle

I hope I'm old before I die, I hope I live to see the day the pope gets high

2005-01-08T03:13:00.000-08:00

Friday was a bit of a kurfuffle, but the tickets were sorted and I came home and watched A Tale of Two Sisters. This film freaked me out, and it is quite complicated so I think it deserves a second viewing.

during this film, I had a surprise phone call from a Mr Andrew Potter. The second half of the Cock and Sock Connection! He's arriving in Cardiff so I agreed to meet up with him later in Spin. Had been speaking to Owain all day and he was arriving later on.

So got to Spin bout quarter past nine and it was good to Po after his tour around the globe. Owain arrived and I had a wicked time and it really did cheer me up after the depressive jailing of me to the flat due to illness for the last 3 or more weeks. Must be doing a bit better too, as I saw a girl who I thought was stunning. As soon as I saw her, I was like wow. I did have a brief chat with her but situations weren't ideal to ask the killer question. This is the first time that I have really seen a girl and been blown away for a very long time, and I couldn't get her out of my head when I got home. Unfortunate, because I'll probably never see her again!!!

Dreams are troublesome at the moment, probably because all of a sudden I have started dreaming again. On Thursday night, I think I had about 3 or 4 dreams that I can remember. Last night, I had another couple, which also included a troublesome one too. Perhaps I've been dwelling on the past too much recently and that's why. Anyway, got the ball tonight in the CIA and I return to work with a vengeance on Monday so hopefully I can kick start 2005!

See you all tonight!

Choose life Choose a big Television

2005-01-07T01:05:00.000-08:00

Went work and was sent home as your not allowed to work if the doctor as signed you off! Insurance reasons apparently.

Cinders will go to the ball though as a phone call from work indicated that i could pick up my tickets from the bay! i trotted down there and met Jo Mcmullen and finally exchanged presents! She got 'A tale of two sisters' Asain horror at its best! Looking forward to watching that this afternoon!

Will try to be creative today, have written one and a half songs in the last day. Just waiting for Josh to get some music together now. Also, need to finish my first film script so I can start on the better second one! Ideas are formed but time constraints and general demotivation has stopped progression. Have also noticed that I tend to use an excessive amount of exclamation marks in my blogs. Note to self to try to stop this, as everything is not funny! DAMN IT!!!! Oh god.........

New names? No ideas as yet, can't really think of anything and might just leave it as it is. On a brighter note, the very short amount of time that I was present and correct in work this morning, I managed to see a few people who cheered me up. Perry was great and he loved the photo of the boys xmas party!

Somewhere only we know

2005-01-06T13:37:00.000-08:00

Bad day..........Very bad day.

Yesterday wasn't great, managed to perk up in the evening a bit but the loneliness has finally hit me. Can't handle being in this flat anymore, can't handle being ill anymore. I've been ill now for quite a long time and man it's got to me. No one has been in the flat for the last two days, and I've tried to keep busy but even stuff you enjoy becomes boring. My fingers are swollen from trying to play the guitar too much. Have watched a few films, but not really concentrated on them. Watched assassins yesterday, hadn't seen it in ages. The antibiotics are starting to take effect, but I have to return to work tomorrow for a couple of reasons.

1) I have to get out of the flat! Work sees like a viable option as at least there are some familiar faces.
2) If I don't go to work tomorrow apparently I can't get the ball tickets and then no one will be going! Well, red tape surrounds us again!

Today's been tough, have cried a fair bit. Then its impossible to say why. People ask and I say I don't know. Oh it will all be alright says my mum. How does she know? At this moment in time it feels like nothing will ever be ok again, but I can't explain it to her so she can't understand anyway. Well, life's crap but what's new. Well apparently its a new year! 6 days in and I've had enough of it already. Watched Cocktail today, cheered me up slightly! It's a hippy hippy shake!
Then watched Trainspotting! Whoops! Perhaps should of left that one today! Anyway, nearly the weekend and it all starts again, perhaps I do need to set some goals and objectives and make sure they happen by myself. Plausible option?

Also, mentioned that I might name the blog as the life begins at 23 name seems to of run its course and isn't really viable anymore. Plus everyone gets sick of typing the address!! Any ideas are welcome!

Beach boys greatest hits

2005-01-05T09:13:00.000-08:00

On Sunday the 2nd of January, what happened? Not much as it turned out!
Josh was in work so I was a taxi, picking him up and dropping him off (in reverse order obviously). I stayed at home and basically did naff all, was very tired though if I remember correctly! Got Josh and came home, messed around on the PS2 and the pc etc. Watched a film called Straw Dogs. Apparently the most controversial film ever made by the British film Industry. I have to say that this statement is a little far fetched. Banned at a time when videos had just came out and repeated viewings of violence would apparently make you want to stab your mates. The violence is quite harsh but dated. The rape scene is nothing compared to the likes of Irreversible. My brother described it as an adult version of Home alone. I kid you not, it is!! It's worth a watch but not expect the most disturbing film ever made, go watch Kids instead.

Josh was in work on Monday too, so I again was taxi man. Watched The goonies in the afternoon and played the guitar a lot. I then made a trek into town to have a look around. Had that awful feeling when you can't remember if you just left your keys at home or you lost them, so ended up buying 50 First dates on DVD! I know that I only saw this film a couple of weeks ago, but I really love this film. It's really clever and the ending makes me feel warm inside!! A Big softy I know! Anyway, we walked home from town and ended up watching Aladdin. Before watching 50 First dates!!!!

Tuesday - I was feeling a little rough again so we got up late, sorted some of Josh's stuff out and then had a bit of a tidy up before going into town. We went to the cinema to watch National Treasure. Great old skool film! I loved it and the 2 hours ten minutes flew by! Walked home afterwards and then immediately packed Josh's stuff into the car and drove to Rhoose. Mum had cooked me a roast dinner! Hooray! I was feeling like crap now so I watched a Peter Kay DVD and then drove home. James had had some bad news so all in all not a great day. I tried to go to sleep but I was having trouble breathing now so I kept waking up.

Wednesday - Went to work but lasted about 10 minutes and felt like crap so went to the doctors. Got a bloody chest infection now so coughing up some right crap and constrained to the house again! Can anyone be this unlucky! Obviously, they can! Came home and just watched t.v that's all I can be motivated to do at the moment!

The End in The End

2005-01-02T11:30:00.000-08:00

2004 has come to an End and the first blog of this New Year will take a slightly serious tone I'm afraid. I'll get the events out of the way first!

Thursday - Got up at 8 so I could drop Josh to work! As soon as I got back I started and finished a job application and then played on the guitar and the PS2! Everyone was in work today except me so it was pretty boring!Picked Josh up at 6 and we came back to the house. Didn't do much really except try to finish off the PS2 game we'd rented out.

Friday - Same as above but when Josh finished at 4.30, I picked him up and we went to get some beers. Came back to the flat and started drinking. The New Years plans had been a wash out because nobody was around or couldn't be arsed to go out. It seems that New Years is old hat! Josh didn't have anything else to do either so he stayed here. I lent Josh some clothes and tried to make him look a little older, and then we left to go to the Woodville. James drove and we left the car there, but The Woody were a bit funny with Josh so we left straight away. Then we wandered to Gazzy Jacks. Students only! Then we looked over at the End. I hadn't been here for ages and I really didn't think Josh would get in, but he did and the beverages soon gathered pace. We actually managed to get a table and continued to drinking. I went to the bar to get some drinks and when I came back it looked like someone was trying to nick my seat! Well, it only turned out to be Owzy-O! Unbelievable! Well, he came and joined us and the drinks still flowed until the inevitable countdown and Auld Lang Syne's was echoed around the country. There's loads of photos on The Son of....... Check them out! It was then a quick wander home where food was cooked and more beers were drunk while watching Peter Kay! A real good night that came from no where!

So Saturday Jan 1st! Busy today! I still can't believe that I did this all in one day! We Woke up about 11 and got dressed and was ready to go over the pub to watch Liverpool vs Chelsea, except the pub wasn't bloody open yet! Never mind, off down Albany road. Rented out the Prince of Persia game again as we never finished it and also bought Welcome to the Jungle! The Rock kicks ass in this film! Then after Liverpool had lost we returned to the flat. We watched Waynes World 1 and 2 and Welcome to the Jungle. Played on the PS2 and finished off the game! Played Countdown and Simpsons Cluedo. Cooked a Pasta Bake, played on the guitar and then rounded it off by finally watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

Now, I watched this film after me and Andrea had gone through a rough patch in March time. This movie really opened my eyes to a few things and I wish I knew then what I knew now. This film is without a doubt the best film I've seen in 2004 (although Lost in Translation is very close). It's so real and raw that I bought this DVD 4 months ago when I split with her, and only yesterday did I feel as if I wanted to watch it. It was really hard work to watch, and at times it mirrored so many of my feelings that knew exactly how Jim Carrey felt. Please go watch this film. If you've got an emotional bone in your body and you've ever been through a break up, I guarantee you, you will love this film and if not I'll give you your money back!!!

As most of you know 2004 hasn't been the best year for me. My Gramps had to have a heart bypass, the car nearly blew up, Andrea left, the DVD and fridge packed up in the same week, I had to move house, cope with being flicked around work and being turned down for every job I applied, and finally just to top it off I had the mumps for Xmas. The only thing that the Mumps did was keep my mind off the fact that Christmas eve would of been my 3 year anniversary. The pain was worth bothering about a lot than that. Most people have said that they can't believe how well I've done in the last 4 months, but I still feel that something is lacking in my life at the moment. I couldn't tell you what it is, and its not necessarily a women either. I need to make myself believe in me again, cos at the moment I can't. I have no reason to hate myself, yet part of me does and that's why 2005 will be the year when I finally achieve something that I want to achieve. It's been very hard, and I have to admit that I did put a brave face on for Xmas, and deep down inside I was hurting. Watching Eternal Sunshine has showed me that, even though I've been through this, it obviously wasn't the right path to take. But, I need those memories or at least some of them to be able to move on, and just deleting the last 3 years wouldn't accomplish anything. So, its 2005 and I can finally say good bye to the worst year of my life and try to make a new start where I can take over the world!! Thanks to everyone for their love and support, I wouldn't of made it through it without you.

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each prayer accepted, and each wish resigned - Alexander Pope

I'm first at the scene to deliver aid, before the big boys get here!

2004-12-30T01:07:00.000-08:00

The big boys are of course the paramedics! Peter Kay continues to astound me at how funny one guy can be. Josh had the Peter Kay Thing DVD for christmas and it is fantastic, and a brilliant lead up to Phoenix Nights. The little stories in the back ground and inter linking characters are so clever, look forward to the Max and Paddy DVD!

Anyway, this week as gone fairly quickly even if I've done very little. Boxing day was ok I suppose. A quick visit into town and I was shattered. First kind of going out into civilized world activity I'd done for a wild and it was bloody freezing. Bought Trainspotting, The Goonies and Straw Dogs on DVD and came home! Managed to nip over the pub, so me and James could watch the football. This was a good laugh and the whole pub seemed in a jovial mood, as they were singing along to the jukebox! Came home for food and television!

Monday and I braved town again! This time I met up with Aimee, who I hadn't seen for ages and had a real good laugh. Although this then tired me out even more than the day before, and at one point, I honestly thought I could put my hand through my arm it felt so weak! Anyway, bought a Bo Selecta calendar, a T Shirt from two stoned, the Waynes World DVD boxset and 3 books! Yes, books! I can read! I bought Beckhams autobiography, one of the follow up books to the Da Vinci Code and then a real surprise. Incompetence by Rob Grant! Yes, Rob Grant the legend behind the Red Dwarf series. Well, I was intrigued and the concept of the book sounded great. No one is allowed to be sacked for incompetence, stupidness or anything. This book is very funny and I ripped through it in 2 days! 160 pages in the first sitting, same again in the second! Couldn't put it down!

Tuesday - Was supposed to go pick up Josh but didn't have to in the end. Was going to go cinema but it was cancelled, so read me book. Watched Home Alone 2 and then Match of the Day!

Wednesday - Went and picked Josh up from Rhoose and then popped into Nans to say hello! Back to my gaff, and some guitar jamming before going to see Lemony Snicket's a serious of unfortunate events! Very black, dark film! I would say that it must only just get away with being a PG, as some of it is really really really dark! Jim Carrey is great although he doesn't have as much screen time as I thought he might. The story is really clever, and like I said its dark!!
After this we returned home in a happy mood to play on Prince of Persia on the PS2, as we'd rented it from the video shop! Pretty good, loads of blood, batter some undead - all in a days work!

Holidays are coming, holidays are coming

2004-12-27T05:07:00.000-08:00

The lead up to Xmas wasn't particularly fun as my face still looked Michelle McManus. I was struggling to eat any food without being in crippling pain and to be honest I'd had enough. The films that were on television seemed to be getting crapper, but I had to entertain myself some way. James and Nora were both in work on Wednesday, so I just bummed round the flat on my own. I completed The Getaway for the PS2. Glad I only rented it, great game but I completed it with James help in 2 days. Back to the video shop to rent out Rocky Legends which just isn't as good as the original.

Have managed to watch a few films over the Wednesday, Thursday Friday days of just sitting around the house doing bugger all. Gremlins, Karate Kid, Snatch, Big Trouble in Little China, Shrek. Also did manage to escape the house on Friday, even if it was just to very quickly get my hair cut!

So Xmas was finally upon us, and it certainly felt strange this year. Woke up and made Nora and James some Bacon, Avocado and tomato sandwiched, then opened the few presents I had here. Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas off J+N which was cool! Made our way up to my Mum and Dad's then. The Swelling has actually started to subside, but I still look like the elephant man!!

Had a few pressies and a great dinner at my mom's. Nora and James both said that they enjoyed it, so everyone was happy. Had some good laughs and even I managed to enjoy myself!! Got back to the flat and we just had a few beers and chilled out. The new Freeview box that I had purchased for the gang had gone now well and was already being utilized! The whole series 2 of Little Britain was on BBC3!

Boxing day was weird again as it was actually the first time in my whole life that I wasn't at my Mum's for the annual party. I just stayed at home, as I couldn't go just in case I gave the mumps to anyone!! So, I just kinda drank some more!!! Never mind hey! Roll on 2005, and thanks to everyone this year for there support. It ain't been easy but I've got to the point now where I can't be arsed to worry about it anymore. I've had a lot of time to think about stuff whilst I've been ill. As the Street's say - Let's push things forward!

Highs, Lows, Demons, Angels, Bumps and Lumps

2004-12-21T13:20:00.000-08:00

It has been over a week since I updated my blog, and I don't feel guilty at all. I do have to say the novelty has worn off, although, I have had some busy days and nights, but the main excuse is being god damn lazy!

Last week in work is a bit of a blur. I was very busy and had lots of different things to do, which was good cos it didn't seem a chore. Monday was a nothing in the night day, I watched 50 First dates for the second day running. Really good film, surprised me on so many levels! Tuesday, I was busy in the night as I went straight from work to The Cayo with Miss Tuckfield, and then met Bex and Jo Barnes for some food. Had a good laugh and exchanged xmas presents. After this I went and met Matt James at the Springbok. The place was over run by Ronan Keating fans so we escaped to the comfort of the cinema. Blade: Trinity! Actually quite good, even though it was very similar to the other two. HHH made his film debut and was rather good.
Wednesday was my late night again, so didn't get up to much.

Thursday - Work, then on to 5 a side where only 5 people turned up so we played between us and we were absolutely knackered!! Still good fun though. In the evening, I had to restrain myself to not go out on a school week. First time for weeks. Can't really remember what I did in the night, but I think I just watched a film?! Who knows? And who really cares!!!

Friday - Boring again, stayed in to save cash and had to go to work the next day. The evening was spent with Max and Paddy - Ding Dang doo!

Saturday - The Boys Xmas party! - Work and I finished at one and raced back to Perry's house to start the celebrations. Dumped my stuff off and the car and went to town. Few pints in Lloyds before venturing into the Pool hall. Don, Perry, Matt and myself then got through 24 bottles of carslberg whilst playing pool for a couple of hours. Then onto the POW, where we had food and refreshments! Then back to Perry's house for the real fun to begin. We'd all agreed to where suits, and a portion of the kitty had been spent on musical xmas ties. The photos will be on the son of later! When we had finished getting ready, we got a taxi into town which dropped us off at the Slug and Lettuce. Don had a 25% off card! Superb!! We all looked the part in our suits and we battered each other when trying to get the other tie to play! Off to the Steam bar for a cheeky JD and coke, and then into Bar Cuba for several more!! We bumped into a couple of HBOSer's and a few of the football lads. Yeoman's was present, and we'd agreed to meet him at some point anyway.

From here we were all pretty wrecked so we went to the Philly. The weather was crap but we didn't care, and we just carried on drinking the JD's! The Philly was a mess. I can't really remember everything. We met Huw Jones and I had a laugh with him. Sometimes he can really crack me up! Had a few Xmas kisses, and generally had a good time. When we went to leave, we realized it had been belting it down with snow and the St Mary's street was looking very festive. A Great end to a great day and night.

Sunday - Felt ill, very sick. Went and picked my car up and couldn't keep anything down. Went to Bex's house to give her a xmas present, and then came back and slept. Woke up with a swollen, throbbing ..... Jaw! So took a trip to the hospital. Several blood tests late and it looked like I had numbs. Oh what a great year!

Monday/Tuesday - No work as I look like the Elephant man, and had to go to the GP and ring hospital etc. Definitely have got mumps and am feeling rough as hell. My head feels like it could pop, and the swelling looks gross. Have never felt like this before. Its crippling pain, and really uncomfortable. Looks like it's here to stay for Xmas too. Watched a few films though!!! I have watched Road trip, How to lose a guy in 10 days, Rosemary's Baby, Armageddon, Harry and the Hendersons, The Muppets take Manhattan! No daytime TV, just movies! Thank the lord for the kids being off this week, as I have watched some of my old fave's!!! Bigfoot was great!!

2004-12-21T13:09:00.000-08:00

Mumps! What a XXXX! The Elephant man has landed

The week that lacked

2004-12-12T11:29:00.000-08:00

Can't even try to remember what i did at the start of the week, so will leave that out but i have been busy again!

After work on Tuesday, i went to Bex Kennedy's house and had some tea and watched Texas Chainsaw Massacre 2004. I still think its really good and Bex hadn't seen it all the way through as she cacked herself last time!! Had a reall good laugh and a good old gossip!! Made me way home about 10ish and stayed up for a while as i didn't need to go to work till 11.

Work was fine on Wednesday and in the night, i did nothing except watch the I'm a celebrity documentary as i only finished at 8.

Thursday was football night, and the HBOS team ran the other team rampant. goals galore and some great team moves. Afterwards, i went and met Matt James in town an had a couple of hours in the Philly. nothing exciting happened but still had a good laugh and got a bit tipsy so it's all good!

Friday - i was knackered as i got up at 7 and went to work, not before getting a mcdonalds breakfast! It helped immesnly and so did only being in work till 11.30! Went home and chilled out and checked my emails. Had one from andrew weaver who used to work at card services and also one from Anthony from down in Cornwall. He was up in CArdiff and i'd only just realised so i rang him and he came over for a few hours. Watched a new comedy dvd he had, totally bill hicks. Thought it was a bit political/religous but some of it was pretty funny. Had to get ready then and go to Matt J's house as it was the HBOS xmas party. Here are the photos on a HBOS specific website! The night was really good, the food was top notch and everyone stayed around for the after food party. Got home about 3 and wasn't really that pissed!!

Saturday - woke up at 9 and was now really tired! My Dad had asked me to help him fit a central heating boiler at my Nan's so i got up and popped up to Whitchurch Road. Dad had rung me beforehand to make sure i was getting up and also to ask what i wanted from Mcdonalds for breakfast! I'd say you can't go wrong with a Sausage and egg Mcmuffin! Took till about 5 but we and Dad just got on with it and had a good laugh. Hint: When hungover for the second day running try not to find yourself up a 12ft-15ft ladder, standing on a window ledge, hanging off the window trying to bash a hole in the wall! Didn't do much for my head!

Came back home and just slobbed all night as i was really tired at this point. Just watched X factor (Well done Steve!) and match fo the day. After that i stuck on Swimfan, quite a good film. I wasn't expecting much but it delivered a couple of interesting twists.

Sunday - Got up and went running. Came back and went down the bay to get a few more xmas presents, then returned to watch 50 first dates on dvd. Again, this one pleasently surprised me and i found it to be really funny. Anthony came over again and we went over the pub to watch Arsenal vs Chelsea. Ended in a draw, probably fair result.

So there it is, the week that lacked. I was busy but something was missing. didn't feel particulary happy this week and found it tough at times to want to get out and do stuff. I did have a good time, don't get me wrong. Hopefully, the next couple of weeks will cheer me up!

2004-12-06T11:30:00.000-08:00

The Legend that is the Ham Sandwich story!

Ham or Cheese?

2004-12-06T11:12:00.000-08:00

On Sunday, Dad, Josh and myself were in hysterics again over the legendary Ham sandwich incident. If someone said this me to right now, I'd crack up laughing. A lot of people I have told don't find it that funny, but I think you have to of worked in a situation where you could pull this gag off. I have. 3 months working with my Dad when I finished my GCSE's. Possibly, a contender of best 3 months spent working. Certainly, made me appreciate how much my Dad works his ass of for his family. Anyway, the story goes as follows.

My dad was working with a labourer called Mark at the time, and they were installing a cooker into some women's house in the Midlands. Dad walked up to Mark and said to him that the women wanted to know if he wanted a ham or cheese sandwich. The women hadn't said anything. So, Dad says 'Well, you better go and tell the women'. Mark trotts off to find the lady whilst Dad is now trying not to wet himself. Mark storms into the room downstairs and says 'I'll have a ham sandwich please'. The women probably a little shocked comes out with the classic line ' I don't know if I've got any ham'. Well, when my dad told me this story for the first time, he was laughing so hard that he couldn't finish the tale. He literally took him half hour to get his bodily functions under control.

The only downfall to the story was that the lady involved actually did make them some sandwiches, but they were disgusting but they had to pretend like they were enjoying them!! The amount of times that when I worked with my Dad we would mention this story and have to stop driving until we calmed down was criminal. Sunday was no exception. No one even said a word but we all knew that the others were about mention the Ham sandwich line, and I just creased. My dad saw me and he was gone. Both of us had tears rolling down our faces!

This story has become a family tradition and will forever make me laugh. Long live the legend of the ham sandwich.

A quiet night in me thinks

2004-12-06T10:49:00.000-08:00

The weekend. The hangover still hadn't completely subsided, so I got up and had some munch before going over the pub and watching Chelsea versus Newcastle. Another awesome game! 4 nil to the blues and it was quite impressive, even if I do hate them. After this, I went back to the flat and had a jam on the guitar for a bit and then just monged in front of the TV. James and Nora went Asda and then when they came back mentioned about going to the pub. Wicked I thought, and then come back have some food and watch I, Robot.

I drove to the Woodville and we settled down for a few beers and a game of pool. Then James had the bright idea of saying let's go to town. He was joking. Me and Nora weren't. I went and bought a jug of carling and that was it!! We walked to town, and ended up in the Gatekeeper. A pint in there and Nora wanted to dance. I'm sure you can guess where this one is going, THE PHILLY!!! When we got in there, it was quite busy already. Nora got a bottle of wine in, but James didn't want it so I had half and Nora had half. Oh dear! Pole dancing, general drunken behavior and I was wearing a bloody jumper and trainers!!! Never mind. Just about to leave and the best Christmas song in the world came on. Mariah Carey - All I want for Christmas! Everyone went nuts and the place was buzzing. We left then though, bout 12.30 and I decided to ring Owain! Good job he wasn't in bed! Taxi home and Nora managed to cook a spag bol when hammered! Good effort!!

Sunday - Wrecked again - Stayed in all day. Watched Friday the 13th, bit of guitar and then I picked up Josh and went up to my Mum and Dad's for a cooked dinner. Had a good laff and then returned to watch I, Robot. Awesome film, and contender for favorite of the year! Not your average blockbuster, a bloody good one for a start and a definite feel of the Minority Report to it.

Monday - Work - running - Bath - Done!

2004-12-06T10:39:00.000-08:00

BBM loves the women!!! Nice one BEN!

Everywhere you go, you always take the weather with you

2004-12-05T03:32:00.000-08:00

A whole week since I have updated the website and even I have to admit that its a pretty lame effort. I started this website as a way of helping me through the last couple of months but know I feel that I have reached a point where this web site is just become a diary and sometimes would probably be like looking at somebody else's holiday photos. In my defence though, I'm trying to keep it light hearted, but when speaking to Owain earlier today, he agreed that it can be sometimes be a bit of a chore. That's not to say that I don't enjoy this website and I know that a few people check it out every now again to see pictures etc, so don't worry I'm not about to jack it all together. Maybe just a re-structure!

As I haven't updated the site since last Sunday, the week has been quite busy, but I have been extremely tired. Possibly burning the candle at both ends ant helping. I can't even really remember what happened at the start of the week, so I'll keep it brief and focus on the main events of the week. Monday - Work - Running and finding out that James has got an irregular heart beat. All in all a bit of a weird day. Nora started work in Monsoon and really liked it, so she's happy.

Tuesday - Not a lot again, work and still no cinema club. It's dying on its ass to be fair!! I must of done something else though, but I honestly haven't got a clue!! Probably some television, maybe a film, who knows!

Wednesday - Got up for my late night in work and felt a bit shit. Just tired I think. When I got to work, I was immediately pulled aside and asked to step in as a team leader for the rest of the week. I was chuffed, had to look after James team, funnily enough, but he's off till next Wednesday until he gets his results back. Work went quickly, and we got back we watched King Arthur. Pretty poor effort but the last 30 minutes is one continuous battle which properly kicks ass!

throaty - Thursday is slowly becoming my favorite day of the week. Usually football, leads to drink and waking up on Friday feeling like a bear has shat in my head. This week was no exception. After team leadering all day, I finished at 4 and then chilled before getting ready for a xmas team night out. I got dropped to Matty J's house and had a few beers at the Claude before getting down the Wharf comedy club at bout 8.15. Voirrey, Marcus, BBM and a few others were present. Really good night, had a massive munch and watched 2 good comedians and another that promptly died on his fat ass! Not even the brilliant Thundercats T-shirt could save the poor sod. Apparently, there were more tumbleweeds in the Wharf that night than in the whole of America! A few bottles of house wine and I was mullered as was BBM and Matt. We went to town afterwards and went to the Philly! Another bottle;e of wine, then to a night of complete and utter drunkness! Can't remember a lot but I seemed happy so....!!! Got a girls phone number, and had a bit of a boogie. Real good night. Dolph turned up later and joined in the fun. The photos will be on the Son of... . This is when it starts getting really hazy. BBM and me got a taxi, god knows where Matt went. The taxi drive was swift, or I just cant remember it. I paid and got out the taxi, open the front door, turn round and Ben hasn't got out of the taxi and it's now heading of down the street. I rang his phone, but neither of us can remember the conversation so off he went. I went in and immediately crashed out. BBM on the other hand, ended up in someone else's house, was removed from there and then woke up back in St. Athens. Good night had by all then!

Friday - The worst I have ever felt in work without a doubt. The wine had killed me and I had to look after a team again today. Luckily, they went easy on me and I survived. Ok, so I had a head that felt like my brain was trying to escape through the front of my skull, but I lived to tell the tale and at 4 I was very proud of myself. Got home and just sat in the lounge all night. It hurt and even a wicked curry (made by Nora) could help me. Max and Paddy did though, as I laughed my hungover little ass off!! That'll ding dang doo for me. Went to bed about 12 after James and Nora has laughed at me for about an hour and a half, as I was constantly trying to doze off but not quite managing it!!!

It's spitting get inside, get inside now, its that fine rain!

2004-11-29T13:00:00.000-08:00

Thursday morning and Paul decided he was leaving early! KNOB! He had to get up and go at 9, I just went back to sleep and woke up about 11. I lay in bed for a long time, I watched the whole first series of Phoenix nights and then watched Godsend. Please do not watch this movie, it has a great idea and a great actor (De niro) but the ending is lame. It wasn't until about 5 that I actually got out of bed and started to do something!!

Football was at 6 so I got ready for that and James came too. It was really good this week, it was mostly HBOSer's and it was a good match. Although, my carpet burn and blisters are bloody sore!!! After this I made my way back to Rhoose and had to sort out the place, before going and getting a Chinese for me and Josh. We watched a few episodes of Phoenix nights and then went to bed, as we were both knackered!

Friday - had to go to work, but it was pretty easy. Had my interview feedback for the Team leaders job and it was very positive, looks like it was pretty close at the top and I just missed out. But, the management have said that they are going to stick me on a couple of training courses and hopefully get me ready for the next set of team leader jobs. Bonus! On the way home , the traffic was awful, and I had to pop into Tesco at Barry to get food and beers.
Josh was home and had invited a few mates round so we set up the PS2, Gamecube and karaoke machine downstairs in the lounge. The night was a blast. Ben's rendition of My way was great, Josh kicked ass to Aint that a kick in the head and Gareth rocked on with the nest of them!! The crate of beers took a battering and so did the neighbours ear drums, as when Hannah came over she said you could here the singing at the top of the street! check out the photos here!

Have to say that I had a right laugh and I think everyone else did too. Ben left bout 1ish and everyone else retreated to bed bout 2!!

Saturday - Slightly hungover but not too bad!!! Tidied the whole house and went and picked up the folks from the bus station. They had a great time and the top I had from Canada is well nice! Should keep me warm on those lonely nights! Dropped them all back to Rhoose and then had to drive my own piece of crap car back to Cardiff! Boo friggety hoo! When I got back I had loads to sort out, before sitting down with X factor, a beer and some grub. James and Nora went out, so I quite happily saw Rowetta get booted off show! Stayed in and saved some cash! Ended up watching more Phoenix nights and going bed bout 2!

Sunday - Got up early and walked into town to get some xmas presents. Was quite a successful trip, as I purchased a few goodies, went and saw Josh in Crane's and bought a guitar pedal and wire. Didn't seem that busy in town, although I think I spent about an hour in the new HMV!! Got home and chilled out with my new toy. Pumped up the volume and rocked out for a bit. James and I then went over the Albany and watched Liverpool vs Arsenal. Great game and before Owzy says anything - I never drank!!! Well, the end result was a surprise with Neil Mellor belting in a 25 yard pearler in the 92nd minute. Arsenal were stunned, we went home happy!
The pedal again took a battering before we watched Harry Potter 3 again and I went bed bout 10! Shattered I was!

2004-11-29T12:20:00.000-08:00

Get your Rocks on! Josh Ben and Gareth

2004-11-29T11:58:00.000-08:00

Cone Head

Oh what a night! Late November back in 2004!

2004-11-29T11:35:00.000-08:00

Wednesday night - The Grizzly one had arrived from Port Talbot and the beers immediately started to flow. Owzy, I know what your going to say and yes booze was involved again! We set ourselves a challenge of finishing all the beer before we left, and the taxi was booked for 8. We didn't quite do it, but we weren't far off!

First stop was Lloyds bar - DEAD!! This place was awesome when it first opened, now its just plain crap. Still we stayed for a pint and a gawp at a hen night!

Next stop The Gatekeeper - Rather quiet! We immediately switched to bottles and had a few. I bumped into Chris a.k.a tuns of fun (Matt J's housemate) and we made our merry way somewhere else.

The Prince of Wales - A little bit busier - Few more bottles before hitting the shots.

The Walkabout - Very quiet - Not sure what has happened to a Wednesday night as it used to be rammed in town when I was a student. Anyway, we managed a bottle in here before we again made our merry way.

The dilemma then struck, where the hell do we go to finish the night off?? Well, we choose Riza and opted for Riza 2 as neither of us had been there before. We queued for a little while, before getting in and ordering a bottle of WKD each and a whole bottle of white wine! Big mistake, and you'd of thought that I'd learnt my lesson from last time. Anyway, it was rammed in Riza and the totty was very limited, so limited in fact that Paul decided he had to pull a big fat munter!! I laughed and then hastily walked away. The night had been a laugh and we were both demolished so food beckoned. Chippy lane! Oh how we love! Chips and curry sauce and we started to make the long walk home. We made a weird route home and as you can tell my the photos, we had a little fun.

When we got by the museum, we were having a right laugh and were even joined by some random girl and a crazy, pissed up New Zelander. Bumped into Rob Ahearne outside the student union and he was battered too, and that's all I can remember, except for walking down towards my house shouting DING DANG DOO! Bed god knows when!!

Garlic Bread................Garlic.................Bread

2004-11-24T07:36:00.000-08:00

I cannot believe that is already Wednesday this week! It has flown by and the majority of it has again been excellent, if a little tiring. I suppose that'll I'll just pick up from where I left off!

Sunday evening - I picked josh up from Crane's and we made our way up to Rhoose. Cooked some grub and generally just arsed around. Hannah came over again and we watched Dirty Dancing. Had a good laugh, she's a nice girl. After Hannah left me and Josh had a bit of an episode with the airing cupboard door. Now, it's past ten o'clock at night and our work gear and school uniform and drying the airing cupboard. The trouble is the lock has gone on the door and the door will now not open. When you used the handle, the bolt just sat there and didn't move. Josh knew what to do though as it had happened before. Just yank it as hard as you could. Well, that didn't work and half an hour later, we were both knackered and had cuts all over our hands. Time was getting on and the door still wouldn't open. Ok, we thought, why don't we just take the handle off. Out came the mini tool kit and the handle was screwed off, but it didn't make a difference as the door still wouldn't open. Ten minutes more of yanking and that was it, the hinges were coming off. We found a metal kebab skewer and pulled out the hinges and luckily the door came off. Hope your laughing cos at this point I was well pissed off!!! We got the door back on and wedged a book in it, so that it wouldn't shut. We retreated downstairs for a cup of tea and a box of mc mini's from our previous tea time trip to Mcdonalds. Watched a bit of Red Dwarf and then went to bed.

Monday - I got up at 6.40. AHHHHHHHHHH!! That really hurt!!! Everything was going fine, until I couldn't fine my wallet.Searching the house and the car and it was still no where to be seen. I must of left it in Mcdonalds, so I tried ringing them but couldn't get an answer. Panic!!
Finally found it, wedged under the passenger seat of the car! How it got they I have no idea. So, I ended up getting work bout 10 minutes late, but the computer systems were down so it was alright. Work was alright and I had two hour long meetings in the afternoon, so it flew by. I was actually stuck in work till bout quarter past four, so I guess I paid back the time!!

Josh had ski-ing after school, so I stayed at the flat in Roath till 7.30. During this time, I completed a four mile run. This was the longest I'd run for continuously for a very long time, and when I was approaching the end of my second lap around Roath park, I felt so good that I thought about going around again, but I bottled it as I didn't know how I'd feel the next day!! I went and picked up Josh and his mate, and made our way back to Rhoose. Had to pop off in Tesco's to get some tea, and Josh bought Peter Kay live at the top of Blackpool tower. Funny as hell! It was so good, we ended up watching twice. Going through a bit of a Peter Kay phase at the mo. He came out with some classics on this DVD and if you ain't seen it, do!

Tuesday - This time I made sure I was in work on time, but it was a pretty shit day. And that's enough said on the matter. Was very glad when I finished at 4, made a dash back to the flat and then went to Llanwit major to pick Josh up from his basketball game. We took the dog for a walk and rented out Elf with Will Farrell. Thought it was alright but not as good as everyone had said. Yes, it was funny but it was kids stuff really. Has a marathon session on the PS2 and went to bed.

Wednesday - DAY OFF! Josh had a day off school so I had booked it off work too. Got up late and had a bit of a tidy up before nipping into Barry to sort some logistics out for mother goose. Got my hair cut and the Demon Barbers and dropped Josh to Llanwit again as he had another Basketball game. In Barry, the Peter Kay phase continued as the Phoenix nights boxset was priced up wrong in WH Smith so I took advantage and got it ridiculously cheap!!! Now, I'm in Roath again waiting for Grizzly to arrive for a big night out in Cardiff. Student night, day off tomorrow, could get messy!!

2004-11-21T05:03:00.000-08:00

Max and Paddy - The Hob nob of the biscuit world

Ding Dang Doo

2004-11-21T04:12:00.000-08:00

Another busy week and this is the first chance I have has to even have a sit down next to the old computer. Have had a very positive week and am in such a good mood today that everyone will be thinking that its snowing. Oh, hang on it is!!! Oh the hilarity!! In quite a silly mood today, possibly due to lack of sleep or that I have actually really started enjoying myself again, and I'm certain that everything that has gone on recently has gone on for the right reasons. Anyway, the last update left us on Tuesday, so it comes a re-cap of the week.

Tuesday - Finished work at 8 and had finally managed to pull my head out of my ass and look forward to going to the cinema. Bridget Jones 2. Likeable, but re-hash of the original. The best lines again go to the incredibly sleazy Daniel Cleaver. It was funny don't get me wrong and the company was good. James and Nora came along, and we met Matty J and Julia. Got home and it was already quite late, so it a case of grabbing some munch and then going straight to bed.

Wednesday - Had to work 8 till 5 to make some hours up for a forthcoming day off, but the day really flew by with the new SLT work. The England game was on in the night and James and I had really been looking forward to it. We might of well of not bothered. A right old pile of horse crap, which bored us both silly. Yes, the Racism was disgusting, but I've heard worse in the English divisions, so everyone really should stop being so righteous. As for Rooney, give the kid a break, if I was that good and that much pressure on me, I want to kick the shit out of some diving Spanish bastards too!!!

Thursday - You may recall, last Thursday was an awesome day. This one kind of followed the same theme. Work was ok and I again had to work till 5. Time went fairly quickly, and the place was quite empty when everyone disappeared to go to John's funeral. After work, it was football down Leisure Leagues again. This time I felt much better, and my fitness is certainly coming on with my running going nicely too. We've booked and paid for the next 5 weeks so we all have to go too! After this, it was straight home and a shower and change before I walked to meet Matty J and Dolph so we could go to the after party in Kiwi's for John's funeral. When we got there, everyone was celebrating his life. It was quite reminiscent of a wake, and there was going to be a lot of aching heads the next day. A few beers, turned into 4 or 5. Then add whisky and coke, before Matty J insisted on doing aftershock. We all got involved and the next round was paid for by Paul Gray!! It was at this point when things get a bit sketchy. The music was pumping and everyone was having a right laugh. Paul Gray was supposed to be kipping at my house, and the Philly beckoned. Had a chat with Vikki Coles and she seemed really glad that I had come, and I was too, cos Vikki supported me a lot when the dead duck day occurred. In the end, no Philly, and I went home alone. Thank god, as I knew that work tomorrow was going to be punishing!

Friday - Ouch! Hungover beyond belief and the only thing that helped me get through it was the fact that everyone else was exactly the same!! Honestly, it was like a hungover club. People piling down for breakfast to try to soak up some of last nights booze. Everyone joking about. Even though, I was evil, I had a really good day. It was a jovial workplace on that Friday afternoon. When, I got home Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Askaban had arrived, so the viewing entertainment was set. James and Nora went out for a drink, so I stayed an chilled with the PS2. Then Max and Paddy came on, and I laughed so hard I was nearly sick! Peter Kay is a legend, and this show was the funniest thing I had seen in a long time. Ding dang doo is already becoming a very repeatable catchphrase, and no doubt I'll be annoying people all week with it!
Please catch this repeat on Wednesday night, if you missed it!! I managed to watch about 45 minutes of Harry Potter before retreating to bed!

Saturday - Had to go to work again! How unlucky first week on SLT and it was my Saturday. It was actually quite good in work again!! No bullshit! Went very quickly, and I managed to get a lot done. When I finished, I had to go to Rhoose and start the week of house sitting. When I got there, it was already nearly 3.

The rugby - The nearly men - Awesome performance, but ultimately we still lost. Gutted

The guitar came out and the PS2 and me and josh just chilled out.
Josh was off to a party in Llanwit, so I dropped him up there, which was quite scary. It was torrential rain, pitch black and I'd never driven my mum and dads car before! Made it home safely though, and then Hannah came over and we watched Harry Potter but spent most of the time chatting. She left bout 10.30 and I waited for Josh to come back. He arrived back bout 12 and wasn't that pissed, and we were both shattered so we went bed.

Sunday - Got up late cos Josh had forgotten to put his alarm on. So we rushed to get him to work on time, and we just made it. Back home now, waiting for 5 to come and I have to pick him up again.

Dreams suck

2004-11-16T08:45:00.000-08:00

Well, Monday involved a lot of talking!! I started back on SLT today and it was ok, had to do training so the day went fairly quick and finishing at 4 again is a bonus! Thanks to Karen and Mike who helped me out. When I got home, I had promised myself that I had to do several tasks before sitting round with the ps2. Anyway, I did succeed. I updated the blog fully and ironed some clothes, cooked myself some food, watched the end of Thirteen which is awesome by the way. My friend Anthony who was the first person i met in Cardiff Uni rang me and we chatted for about 45 minutes!!! He had his jaw broken about 6 weeks ago, sounded bad but he's better now. He's applying for jobs all over the shop (sounds familiar) and good luck to him! Will see him in January, can't wait. Got off the phone with him and managed to squeeze a few goes in on the PS2 before resorting to the guitar. The guitar seems to be really helping me at the moment, something I can stick my head in and forgot all the shit that continues to fly around my life. Then, the phone goes again and its my lovely friend Bex Kennedy. Damn, I love this girl. We had a wicked chat for ages, and its like we've never been apart. When we used to sit next to each other in work, we always knew what the other was thinking and we always used to share secrets. We chatted for ages too, and I was chatted out when we finished. Anyway, Bex you know that I know that he loves you already, so get in there girl!!

After this I was feeling wicked, felt really loved!! My mum was on the phone during the day and I also managed to fit in time to talk to my younger brother, Josh. Sorry for embarrassing you in town mate but I just couldn't resist it! I'll pay for a cinema and takeaway night when we get together on Friday!!! GEOFFREY!!!! HAHAHA! (sorry private joke). It was getting on a bit now, but we stuck the Brotherhood of the Wolf on. What a wicked film. I couldn't keep my eyes open at the end because it is a bit of an epic, but I'll finish watching it tonight!! Kung fu mixed with period drama and scary ass wolves! Quality! Oh and it's French so your guaranteed a bit of the old rumpy pumpy!!

I went to bed feeling so happy, but when I i awoke at around 7 in the morning, I had hit rock bottom again. Dreams really do put you in a position that you just cannot escape andthats why they are scary. They can seem so real, yet when you wake up you know that it wasn't but they can still play on your mind for days afterwards. Put it this way, I won't got into details because its just not worth it. I had to work a late night in work, so I lay in bed for a long time this morning trying to get back to sleep, but I failed. The dream was continually floating around my head. It caused me to really have a bad morning and I was quite close to approaching a relapse. I tried to be strong and eventually I fought the law, and I won!! It's now twenty past 7 and I have 40 minutes left in work. I am on my break so don't worry I'm not abusing work! As soon as I get home we're off to watch Bridget Jones 2, and then we're into the second half of the week.

As Dave Lister says in Red Dwarf 2 to Rimmer - Be Strong big man.
Rimmer's reply - Smeg off dog food breath!
Today, my strength came through and I think I'm returning to the person that I was before her. Happy go lucky, always up for a laugh and not afraid of change. My brother Matt said that he didn't like who I'd become with her. That really made me think, and I certainly had changed, let's hope that I can change now for the better and take over the world. Watch out Earth, the slimes coming home!!!

Weekend, too much spare time!

2004-11-15T09:18:00.000-08:00

Saturday involved being hungover for far too long!! I decided to get up after a poor nights sleep at about 11. I woke James up and we went to the Albany to watch Spurs versus Arsenal. What a game. James must of broken his curse as the score was 4-5! One of the best games I've ever seen live. Stupid result with some wicked goals!! Didn't drink though, I was on my best behavior! I went to Asda afterwards to get some grub and ended up buying WWE Smackdown vs Raw. When I returned, me and James watched a great game of rugby with Ireland beating those no good arrogant people, South Africa! After that I played on my new game and was blown away by how good it was. Respect to the PS2! I doubted you one day, now you rock!

After X-Factor, I was back over the pub again and I met up with Jo Jo McMullen. It was good to see her and I wish that I'd stayed longer and got pissed with her, but I had to get some food! We had a great chat and her boyfriend Alex seemed really sound, and well into PS2!! Her friends also seemed really nice and I had a great time. When I got back, tea took ages, otherwise I would of popped back over, but it was too late then and I was a bit drunk again, after drinking some red wine!!! More football and PS2 before popping off to bed!

Sunday and I kept my promise to myself to go running. My legs were aching a bit and I'm slightly worried about the previous injury but I got some ice on it afterwards and it felt better. My busy weekend continued and I went to town with Nora and James. I had won some vouchers from HMV in work so I spent them on two new DVD's, Thirteen and Brotherhood of the Wolf. Town was freezing, and its obvious that a very cold winter is coming our way! When I got home, it was time for some more pub and football action. Newcastle vs Manchester Utd and another cracker! 3-1 to united but a very entertaining game! I refrained from drink again!!

After this, I was shattered but we cooked a massive Roast Beef dinner which was amazing! Fair play to James the boy can cook! Mum and Cherrie came over because Josh and Dad had gone to watch Deep Purple in the CIA. They stayed for a while and everyone had a good chat. Watched Thirteen afterwards and then went bed.

Unplanned nights out!

2004-11-15T08:55:00.000-08:00

Thursday was a very good day!! My first full day in work since monday but i actually had a good laugh! I was roped into playing 5 a side football by Matty J and Yeomans, but it was certainly worth it. Work was ok again, although, on a sad note one the team leaders died today and having worked with him on SLT, i was gueninely upset. The atmosphere in work wasn't great because of this but a real team effort and occured and everyone kept everyone else going. Finished work at 5 and raced home to get changed for football. I picked up Dolph, Matt and Chris and went down Leisure Leagues. We were all hanging out at the end, no one could breathe let alone walk!! Anyway, home and striaght in the shower before Dolph was outside picking me up to go bowling for Karen Tuckfields birthday. There was twelve of us altogether and i have to admit that i had a ball! (Get it! Ba boom boom cha!) The drinks flowed and the balls rolled. We played as teams and there was lots of mad celebrations and loads of laughter. This is were the night took an unexpected turn. Town on a school night is never a good idea, especially when no one else has to go to work the next day. I had to! The numbers reduced to 6 in town. Gemma and Karen both stayed for a while but then went home. Matt and Julia stayed a while longer before making a move. Perry had met his girlfriend so he stayed. I don't even have to tell you where we.....the Philly! Bumped into her sister again, and had a good chat about what i was up to etc and then went pole dancing downstairs!! Football, no food and jack daniels and coke had got me in a right mess. Managed to pull though and got a girls number!! I finally left bout 12.45 and got a taxi home. Nora and James thought that i had brought someone back with me, i hadn't i was just so pissed i was talking to myself!! HAHAHA!!!

Friday - World of pain!! A full day in work and i was ill. Even had to take a conveience spew in work. I survived though, by not having to ring customers, drinking water all day, and listening to radio 1! I found out today that i didn't get the team leader job, but they gave me a poistion on SLT so i still got a pay rise and i had some very positive interview feedback. Can't be all bad! The evening saw Rob Ahearne get dropped to mine and the beers started flowing. We got a taxi into town and went straight to the walkabout for a pint cocktail. The rugby was on, which always makes town a bit of a gamble. We went to a party in Yate's for one of Rob's mates sisters, but it was a bit poo. Katie Hughes turned up though and she joined are drinking circle! Off we went to Edwards, her sister was there again! I asked her this time if she was stalking me!! I was not getting drunk tonight even though i was drinking copious amounts of booze. anyway, went to the Philly and got onto tequila's but the rugby gamble hadn't paid off and there were no women to be seen! Gutted!!! I started to walk home and text the girl from the previous night. She turned out to be a pyscho and may have or may not have a boyfriend. Too be honest i don't care!

I can't wait for the weekend to be here

2004-11-14T14:06:00.000-08:00

It's been a while since I updated the blog and part of me feels a bit guilty, but the rest of me says tough tits cos I've been to busy!! There's no major news that should overpower everything that happened this week, so I'll just go straight for the run down of what has been going in the life of Gavy Wav.

Tuesday - After the NTL man went, I caught the bus to town with Nora and went on a bit of a mad shop. Aimee was also meeting us in town but she couldn't get in until later on the afternoon so she joined up with when most of the shopping had already been finished. I bought quite a bit just because I wanted too!! The new River Island in town proved to be too much of a temptation and I had to buy quite a few things!!!! A new top and a new pair of trousers were purchased, and then the shopping continued elsewhere. Went to Burton's and bought another new top, nice brown one to go with my other new clothes that I'd bought recently. Had to buy the new Red Dwarf DVD and because I'm such a geek, I bought the limited edition one with a model of Starbug! Owain - I know you'll appreciate it!! Finally, went to H and M and bought a new jumper and a new pair of jeans! At this time, me and Nora were all shopped out. When I got home, I had to try on all my new gear! Felt like Christmas. The cinema beckoned in the evening, but due to timings we had to go to Ster Century rather than the favored UGC! This turned out to be a massive mistake, as it was CHAV city. Loads of little chavvy bastards ruining the film for everyone else who had a brain cell. The film was the American remake of the Grudge. Now, if you read my review on the film log, you'll understand that I loved the Japanese version. The remake is good, and quite scary but lacks dread. Also, having chavs farting, shouting and screaming will certainly remove any tension. Home to bed afterwards but a really good day!!

Wednesday - Back to work but it was an early finish day so it wasn't too bad. Still didn't find out about the team leader job but I can wait! Work was ok and I finished at 2.45 anyway. I got home and went on a bit of a mad one tidying the house! Before sitting down and just chilling out. Went over the pub then and watched the Newcastle vs Chelsea game. James came with me so it finished nil nil! He says he is the curse so I'll just agree with him. Ended up watching Bridget Jones Diary when I got back, always a good laugh.

Those damn dirty apes!

2004-11-09T02:12:00.000-08:00

The joyous occasion of a Monday morning. Wake up, all of sudden you realize the weekend is over and you have to go to work. This morning, I woke up and just went ok, and got up, got ready and off I went. This was the first morning in a long time where I'd had a good weekend, good sleep and nothing had ruined it. Nothing at all. So, it's now been over 2 months. 10 weeks on Wednesday to be exact and how am I doing?

The answer is fairly complicated, I would be lying if I said I didn't miss the company and the cooches, but apart from that I don't miss anything else. Everyone seems to think that I'll find someone else, a lot better than her, and I think I will to, but the length of time it will take varies. Mum's like xmas is only 7 weeks away, you could have someone else by then. Possibly, a bit ambitious, as I'm not even looking. It was funny the other day though, when this girl from River Island started chatting me up. Mum thought it was great and it did make me feel good about myself. Not sure why I've felt compelled to write this on a Tuesday morning, waiting for the NTL man to arrive, just felt right. That's how I'm generally following things through at the moment, if it feels right then do it.

Anyway, still no news on the team leader position. The decisions have been made but HR have to sign it off, so I'm off work today so probably wont find out till Wednesday now. Felt confident over the weekend, that has slowly wained. Work was easy and quick. I was on collections, so I had radio 1 on all day, and made a list of good tunes that were out to download when I got home. Fave tunes at the minutes include The Libertines - what ever happened to the Likely lads, Gwen Stefani - What you waiting for? and Lemar - Is there any justice in the world? All a bit different, but equally cool tunes.

I went Asda after work to have a trot around and see what was about. Bought a few things and came home. After watching Paula win the New York marathon, I really wanted to start doing some serious running. I had been on the last two Sundays and my legs had held out, today was going to be a test. Not many people know that I used to be a really good runner. I don't mean that in a big headed way, as I certainly wasn't the next Seb Coe. In Uttoxeter, I was the best runner at the club, and was constantly winning races. I've still got all the press coverage and trophies, and it does make me feel sad that I let it slip. Towards the end, I pulled the interior calf muscle on each leg. 12 weeks of Physio which hurt more than anything I've ever experienced. I came back and started training, built myself back up and then I did it again. 10 more weeks and I'd had enough. After this point, I slowly hit the slopes of drink, going out and not running! University killed it. I have managed to run the Barry Waterfront race twice since I've been in Cardiff. Both just average performances, with not enough training. I also ran the Cardiff half marathon fun run, a few years back and actually finished second. The end was great cos you got to run around the millennium stadium pitch. Anyway, after going off on this tangent, I went round Roath park, and after a bit a really banging tune came on the radio so I thought I'll test my legs. I picked up the pace a little and slowly got quicker and quicker. I felt good, and I was soon sprinting. This continued for about 400 meters, then I slowed and carried on going. I felt really good, and although I had a slight twinge in my left calf, it held up nicely. Bit of ice when I got back, and the leg felt fine. I think I'm going to try and Join a local club, and start up again. Motivation is there at present, just need to keep it there.

After the run, I nipped down blockbusters and rented 21 Grams. This film is genius, beyond genius. If you haven't seen Amores Perros, then go see it as its by the same director, Alejandro González Iñárritu. This guy has only directed a handful of films, but he already has his own style through complex story telling. I beg you please go see this film. James wouldn't watch it because he said it was too depressing. Far from it, the jumbled presentation of the film makes you concentrate, makes you think about the characters emotions. I will definitely buy this film now. Naomi Watts is beautiful, Penn just performs out of his skin, and Del Torro always shines. Nora really enjoyed the film too, and we both chatted about it afterwards, and got onto Spanish cinema. I'm in love with it at the moment, and its cool cos Nora has seen most of the same Spanish films that I have.

Right, the NTL man has just left, I've used the phone already to phone the incompetent council regarding my council tax refund and they are still dicking around!! Never mind. Off to town now to spend some serious cash. Still keeping those fingers and toes crossed for that job.

The storm is over now

2004-11-07T09:59:00.000-08:00

Interesting week to be honest. Certain amount of stability which seems to of made a genuine difference. Not that much to report from the start if the week but a few interesting tit bits towards the end!!!

Monday - Work wasn't too bad. Was doing collections again which killed some time. In the evening, I bought shrek 2 and watched that with J, N and Aimee. Very funny film, even on repeat viewings!

Tuesday - Collections again but this time I had headphones and just listened to tunes on radio 1 all day. This was a good idea which turned bad after listening to too many songs that brought up memories. Tuesdays seem to be a bane of my existence at the moment, but I got through this one and even found out that I had a team leader interview. Well, it certainly surprised me.

Wednesday - Back to normal work, and preparation for the interview. In the evening, I did some more work for the interview but then went to the Cinema to watch Shark Tales with Aimee. The film was funny as hell, and not at all what I had expected after the critical mauling the film had taken. Very adult film, similar to the simpsons with the number of film references. Got home and chilled.

Thursday - The day of the interview. It wasn't till 3.00pm which made it quite difficult to concentrate in the morning, but luckily I had to prepare for a film quote quiz which I was doing in a town hall. It went down quite well, and everyone said they liked it. I just thought it was a good laugh to get up in front of everyone. The interview soon came and I think it went well. So, touch wood, fingers crossed etc etc, cos I wouldn't mind getting this job!!! Came home and watched the butterfly effect with Ashton Kucher. Very good film, if a little dark. The ending is really quite sick so be prepared for a horrible feeling inside for the last 30 minutes.

Friday - Early finish. Work was good again today, as I had training and was back downstairs on collections. Made the time go fairly quickly, but we didn't hear about the job. Some problem apparently, so it will now be Monday. Got home and had a marathon session on pro Evolution soccer, before deciding that I didn't want to go out in the night. This was the first Friday night since the dead duck day that I haven't gone out. I just felt like I didn't need to! Good hey!

Saturday - Got up and went to town with my Mum and Dad. Dad gave me a pair of kickers. Lush brown shoes which I had to wear out in the night!! Mum also got me a wicked shirt. Hopefully, wear it out next Friday!!! I've got to do a week long stint of brother and house sitting when they go to Canada. Got home and watched the rugby. Great match same the ref was a wanker. But, me and James had a good time. Got ready then and went to TGI Friday's for a meal for Sara's leaving do. Matt Ford was there, and Becky which was cool. Had a massive burger and felt full afterwards. Too full!!! There's a few photos so I'll stick them on the Son of...... Got back and aimee came down so we could go to town but we just went to Albany and had a few drinks.

Sunday - Nothing all day!!! I watched the New York Marathon and just chilled out. Feeling very good this weekend, and even though I haven't done much I have still had a real good laugh. So, tomorrow the day of reckoning, but if I don't get it, at least the new Red Dwarf DVD is out!! Oh, its cold outside....

no time for update

2004-11-03T15:17:00.000-08:00

Have team leader interview tomorrow must prepare!!

It's Half Term is it

2004-11-01T10:56:00.000-08:00

The Photos can be viewed at this link!

Friday continued.....
The first stop was the Gatekeeper where we quickly got a complete round in. Some very young girls had entered and I made a comment about half term which didn't go down well. The dirty look we got said it all!!! Anyway, we went to Whispers and it was dead so we moved over to the Prince of Wales, where the whole of NBU had congregated!! The usual suspects were present and correct. Nora turned up and we all carried on drinking, until the whole group made a mass exodus to Whispers of the HBOS Halloween party. It was a shame that no many people from CMS turned up, but the NBU guys need us proud and showed what a party should be like. Matty J still couldn't get a photo with both eyes open, Paul Gray wet himself and we have photos to prove it. BBM was smashed and Mathias was just plain scary!!! James was dancing so he must of been wrecked.

It was now getting on a bit, so Paul, James, Nora and I all made an exit to the Philly. This was where a big mistake was made. I had a brain wave that me and Paul had a bottle of house white wine between the two of us. Never again! The damage his caused was painful. Although, at the time it was a great laugh. It wasn't long before we were on the dancefloor. I had my bum pinched and I turned around to see Andrea's sister. We had a quick chat which was cool, before I asked if SHE was around. Jo said no, I said wicked and off I went to dance the night away! Managed to score with a couple of nice girls, well, they both grabbed me, but they were still nice and I didn't even have to try! Perhaps, its not that bad being single!! Paul had pulled too, but before long it was near kicking out time. Bumped into my ex before HER when I got outside so had a quick chat and then bundled my way home. James used the words 'You were a mess'! I happen to agree.

Saturday - Recovery time.
Woke up about 10 and didn't feel too bad. Paul had to go and play football, bless him, and he didn't look good!! James was rough as hell too, so he went to get some food. He came back with a burger king, which helped immediately and then made me feel a lot worse. James stuck Lethal Weapon 4 on (possible the best hangover film ever) and we watched that before I went back to bed. I was supposed to go to Bristol for my auntie's sisters birthday, so I got dressed and walked to town. I drank half a pint and then chucked up and walked all the way home!! I was hanging!!!
Got back and James was still rough so we watched the usual Saturday night TV, and chatted about what school was like. This was a good laugh and certainly took the thought of feeling ill away. Nora got back about 9.15 and we ordered a takeaway. Curry all the way! Was pretty good, and we had chatted and watched TV.

Sunday
Woke up about 1, and went running around Roath park. It was at this point I realised it was only 12!! Damn farmers and their stupid clocks!! The rest of the day, I spent doing nothing, except making a wardrobe which took ages and was hardwork! After this, I went up to pick up my younger brother from Crane's and took him back to Rhoose. The folks were in fine form, and I had a really good time up there. Lush cooked dinner, a go on donkey Konga. A brilliant new Nintendo game where you have to play the bongo's! Mum had bought me a new shirt and Dad had bought a new Ben Sherman jacket which was too big, so he's swapping it for a smaller size and giving it to me. Well chuffed with that!!! I left there feeling wicked and big thanks to Josh, Mum, Dad and Cherrie. When I got back, I was still in a wicked mood, so the household sat down and watched 40 days and forty nights. Great film, really funny and actually quite reflective considering my recent situation. Good weekend, thanks a lot to everyone involved!

2004-11-01T10:27:00.000-08:00

The Party is in full swing!

Before the Storm.............

2004-11-01T05:58:00.000-08:00

This is my second attempt at writing this update. My PC crashed on Saturday after writing a couple of days worth and the motivation to re do it has been severely lacking. Anyway, I can't even remember what I wrote then so I'm going to have to start it off from scratch.

As weeks go, I must admit that at times I struggled and at other times I had an awesome time. I guess that pretty much sums up the last month, as I look back now and look at what I've done, where I've been, ladies I've met, new friends I've made and it doesn't seem as bad as it does on the sour chocolately exterior! Looking back (Over my shoulder!!), is something that I shouldn't really do, as it certainly brings about too many what if's and maybe's which have a tendency to mess up your head and completely ruin a day or two. So, after this psychological mumbo jumbo, I'll get into what I've been up to.

Thursday - Good day. Work was only a short one. 9 till 2.45 and I was very busy after this. Had a few meetings in work too with higher management which was interesting. Went straight from work to get my haircut by my Nan's and then picked her up to take her shopping at Asda. Grampy was at the hospital again, having his eyes checked over this time. Nan had taken a tumble up the stairs and had bruised all her arm and managed to carpet burn her forehead. I joked and said that the pair were like an episode of Casualty. Nan retorted with 'I'm buying my own bed up there'! Nan's are great!! So, we went to Asda and she went and got all her bits and pieces, whilst all I bought was some new bed sheets and duvets etc. Exciting huh?!

Dropped Nan home and this time I managed to avoid her trying to give me money. I flatly refused and almost had to escape before it was enforced on me! Made me feel good afterwards. Got home and had a bit of mad half hour, where I tidied my room and made my bed with the new sheets (I know its an unnecessary detail but the punchlines coming I promise!!!). I sat down and put some information down on a new job application form, before James and Nora finished there bits and pieces and we all sat down for tea! Steak, chips and peppercorn sauce! I was rammed, and then we had vienetta and M and M's!!! We watched Six Days Seven Nights, which was really quite bad, followed by Romy and Michelle's high School Reunion which was equally as bad, but did make me laugh, so can't of been that bad!!!

Friday - The Party
Work was ok, even the fact that I had to work till 5 didn't put a dampener on it. Just got in there, had a bit of laugh with the funniest Mel B/Bo Selecta answerphone message ever! James was waiting outside at 5, and we went and got beers from Asda. Straight home, and i walked into my bedroom to find that Megan, James's dog had managed to get into my room and make the bed a mud pit! I was not impressed, although we did both laugh and then just changed the duvets again! The Grizzly one arrived from Port Talbot. Mr Paul Levers dubbed Grizzly during the second year of Uni, dur to his hairy ass! The beers flowed and then the taxi arrived.

Give me back my sock you goat bastard!

2004-10-27T10:16:00.000-07:00

First up date of this week. Not because I've been particularly busy but just had a lot on my plate.
Monday - Woke up and felt like crap because of the lack of sleep. It was ok though as I had to train someone all day and then write a report for one of the big wigs so was quite an interesting day. That was until SHE decided to text me with reference to our joint account. I was quite angry as after her previous effort of ignoring me in town, I didn't want to speak to her. But, she persisted as when I got home and turned on the PC, she had managed to get on her brothers msn and was trying to talk. ANGER! Jesus, this was really working me up and then she started coming out with some real nasty things about how shes moved on and made plans. What do I care? I've made plans etc but just feel the need to boast about them or try to make myself feel better by downgrading someone else. Anyway, I left on a good note, she went an extra step further and was very horrible. Monday night saw me stay in. Aimee came round and with James and Nora, the four of us had food and watched a film. Really good evening.

Tuesday - Felt awful in the morning, just couldn't pick myself up out of bed. I was so tired after the late night before hand!! Got into work and booked a half day off. I also decided that the best way to end all of the HER problems was to sort the joint account and say goodbye for good. When I got home, I sorted the logistics and emailed her to say to sort the rest. Did I get a thank you? What you think. No, all I got was ok! Not that I was bothered as I blocked her email address straight away anyway, but someone how it got through. I went and took the dog for a walk with Nora and started to feel better. Got back and she had actually replied, an hour and half later, with a brief thank you. I never responded. So I monged for the afternoon and sorted out an application form for a new job. Before going to pick Matt J up to go to watch Alien vs Predator. Now, the company was good and I had a laugh but the film was poor!! Only, a couple of good bits but I'm glad I've seen it.

Wednesday - Work. Oh no! I had to work a full day!!! It was ok though and I just cracked on with it. Rang NTL to get a phone line fitted and then rang the water company to find out where my refund was. I had been promised a call back yesterday, but did they? I went made today and then the girl told me that I'd been mis-informed and I wasn't due a refund. I hung up couldn't be arsed with those robbing bastards! But, this was going to cause problems as that money was HER's so I had to text her and tell her. But, that's it now, no more. Got home and I was rung up by the Customs and excise office for a telephone interview. It went well and I passed the first stage. An application form is now in the post! James also got one too, so we can help each other. Football tonight and off to meet the two lads from the pub on Sunday, Neil (Josh - spitting image of Ben Pym when he's older) and Michael (an Irish version of David Sneddon), should be a good laugh! Keep safe folks, and remember don't eat yellow snow (2.15 - coffee house!!!)

2004-10-24T06:49:00.000-07:00

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From right on top to straight back down

2004-10-24T06:23:00.000-07:00

Oh dear, what has happened to me this weekend. From being mega happy and intent on having a good time without past memories ruining what I think life should be, it all came back to haunt me.

You can probably tell already that this update is going to be very different from the jovial brightness of the previous post, and there is no simple explanation for this. Friday was a day off, and the evening was a quiet night out. I went round to Matt J's house at about 6 and we got some beers in and played on the PS2 intill we finally got a taxi about 10.15. We got into town and went straight to the Gatekeeper where we had a few drinks and then went onto Edwards. We weren't in there long before SHE arrived with her sister and 2 older men. Her sister gestured towards me so I waved in a civil manner and moved upstairs to get some distance. Now, having not seen her for 3 weeks, and then bumping into didn't really feel that bad. Now, the comment I'll make next may be construed as me being a bitter bastard but this isn't the case. She walked in, and my first reaction was what does she look like? Any, part of me that used to find her attractive has died, perhaps because I've now realized how nasty she can be. Anyway, me and Matt moved hastily on, but we didn't realize that they've already left. We went straight to the Philly as we were meeting people there and guess who'd decided to go there too!!! She walked past me and I made an effort to try to catch her eye and I just wanted to say hello and be civil to her face. I wasn't given the chance as she ignored me and moved on upstairs with the two old blokes!! Now, as I don't want to get back with her and I didn't find her attractive, why the big deal? To this question, I do not have an answer. I feel that as soon as I saw her all the confidence that I had built up over the last couple of weeks had disappeared and I just wanted to go home. We stayed for a while longer and had a chat with a few people before getting a taxi home. My head was pretty messed up and I didn't sleep well at all, and Saturday I was quite down.

So, I didn't do much at all Saturday day. I just waited for Rob Ahearne to make an appearance and we started drinking for the fancy dress party in town. I was a gangster and Rob was Zorro but all the women in town thought he was Batman! I found it funny he didn't! We went to the Gatekeeper and then the Walkabout for a few drinks before the party. The Walkabout didn't disappoint again, as like last week I had a wicked time in there. A group of women were dressed as gangsters so they immediately wanted me to join there gang for photos etc. I got chatting to a really nice girl called Nic and a good time was being had by all. It was getting a bit late now and we needed to get to the party so we made an exit and went to Sugar.

The party was ok, but I only knew about 5 people and I'd sobered up and was getting to a point when instead of having a good time, I wanted to go home. I chatted away to a few peeps and the atmosphere in the party was good but there wasn't any music and very few women so we decided to make move. Unfortunately, everywhere else now had queues about 5 miles long so we wandered around before giving up and going home. I got a taxi and James was still awake so we had a chill out and watched Die Hard with a vengeance! Got to bed about 2.30 and slept slightly better.

Sunday morning and I still feel quite nervous about things. It's a horrid feeling when you do not want to feel like this and there is no reason for it, but you still do. I got up about 12 and went running around Roath park. I Felt really good and after running for about a mile, I realized I needed to slow down as I was running at 5 minute mile pace!! I blasted a couple of laps and retired to the flat where I tried to recover and await the footy later on today. Hope I can break myself out of this rut, and have another good week. Got a party on Friday with work and Grizzly is coming down from Port Talbot. Should be meeting Louise one night, cinema club another so quite busy..........Perhaps it will be alright after all!!!

Josie, your my source of most frustration

2004-10-22T06:02:00.000-07:00

Friday and a welcome day off, but I can hear you all asking - Gav, what have you been up to?
Well, your lucky cos if you sit crossed legged on the rug we'll have a story time!

Wednesday - Easy day in work 9 till 2.45. Went pretty quick and without any hassles. Got home and chilled out with a film, The Devil's Backbone or Espinazo del diablo, El, was quite good. Big thanks to Jo JO who lent it too me! After that the pub beckoned, and me and James went to watch the Arsenal game. Unfortunately, they were showing the Chelsea game and neither of us was particularly bothered about who won!! So a few jars later and 60 minutes of football and it was back to the flat. I was shattered so I stuck on some Family Guy and went to bed pretty early!

Thursday - Man, work took ages today felt like I was going to be there for an eternity! I enquired about some jobs from the Western Mail and have got the applications forms through on email, hopefully, one of them will a ticket to a better job. Finished work and got back home in a very good bout 5.20. Chilled for a while before starting to get ready to go out. I went to Bar Is Is to meet a girl that I'd met previously on Saturday night in the Square. I got there and Louise was already there. She's 27 and training to be a dance teacher! Had a good laugh a few drinks and felt really good. She'd driven so she even dropped me off home! Had a good night and we are arranging a night other mine with Drop Dead Fred on DVD!!!!! Funny what you'll talk about on a date!!!

Got back to the flat, and Nora was wrecked on red wine, so opened another bottle and we all had a good drink! I was a bit worse for wear, but I ended up watching The House on the Haunted hill with Famke Jansen. That was actually pretty good, and then I k'o'd bout 1.30!

Friday - I got up at 8.15 to drive James to work! What a good boy I am! Got back and went straight to bed!!! Then went and met the old mother goose in town. Had a coffee and a good chat and then came back to chill!

As for the forthcoming weekend, it is quite busy again but not as bad as last week, but I'm sure I'll have some goss to spill in the next few days so keep your eyes peeled and get ready to tune into next weeks exciting conclusion of Batman....Oh sorry, got a bit carried away then!!!

2004-10-19T10:26:00.000-07:00

Yeah thats right 6000 Chicken Fajitas

Can I have 6000 chicken Fajitas please?

2004-10-19T10:14:00.000-07:00

It does seem to appear that life is all of a sudden pretty damn good! This last week has been mad, and the energy levels are depleted at present, but enjoyment levels have flown sky high. Work was ok yesterday and was pretty good today. Laid back, met my targets and had a laugh. One of the girls managed to come out with the line 'I've squirted plum juice all over me'! Well, that slayed me to the point that I couldn't breath. Lucky, I never had any water in my mouth otherwise it would of been (in the style of Mark and Lard) I was having a drink then!!

Quiet one tonight, no cinema club as the returning Hbos'ers Matty J, Perry, Don and Dolph need time to recover from their Newquay excursions. Sounded like they had a good time!!

Busy weekend ahead though, and with Friday booked off work its a long one!

2004-10-18T10:23:00.000-07:00

Ouch! Evo juice aint going down well for Matt in Oz bar

Part 2! The Never Ending Saga!

2004-10-18T10:22:00.000-07:00

The Walkabout was nice and bust but you still had room to move, which is always a bonus! The pint cocktails were on along with a Banofee Pie shot! As soon as the camera was brought out, the ladies wanted in on the photo's! See the pics here!

At this point, we were having a right laugh, but we moved on to The square! Met some cowgirls. Quick Tequila and then we went and met Aimee and her friends who were also dressed as cowgirls! Into, the Ox bar for another Evo Juice and a white and choc mint double of Corky's!! Finally, moved from there and went to the Philarmonic. It was rammed as usual, so popped downstairs and got some more shots on the job. Matt bought a Mexican bullet which was vodka, tequila and something else! Was proper rank!! Then a few more shooters and the flamin Zambuca's came out! I was pretty wrecked at this point, but the night was far from over. Bumped into one of my ex Tesco Colleagues, Aysha. Hadn't seen her for ages and it was good to catch up.

We left the Philly at about 2 and got food, before trying to get a Taxi. Finally got home at about 4, bed at 4.30! Good night had by all.

Sunday - Woke up pretty early and never bothered going back to sleep, so me and Matt got some munch on and tried to overcome the impending few hours off feeling like a pig had shat in our heads! Pro Evo helped!! No rest for the wicked though, as it was my Dad's fiftieth birthday party. James, Nora and I picked Joshua up from Crane's (Good luck with the job mate, you deserve it) and Matt picked up and Nan and Gramps. Got to Rhoose at about 5.30 and tried to cure my tiredness by drinking some more! The party was cool, and I had a good chat with my Nan's and Gramps, who all wanted to make sure I was doing ok!! Dad seemed to enjoy his day and I'm glad cos he's a top bloke. Mum had bought him a holiday to Canada, so I'm on babysitting duties in November! After, all this excitement I was shattered so got back and watched Mean Machine, before getting into bed and passing out immediately!!

Monday - Work, Tired. Staying in. Nuff said!

P - A - R - T - Y? Because I GOTTA!!!!

2004-10-18T09:56:00.000-07:00

Well, this is the first chance I have had for 5 days to sit down and try to update, and read everyone else's blog. Busy is an understatement! So, make yourselves comfortable cos this could be as long as one of Po's tales!!

Friday - Work was a good laugh, really relaxed and finished early anyway! Straight home and I had bought the new Pro Evolution Game for the PS2, so that took an early bombardment! Off I went to pick up Rob Ahearne and the party commenced. After a quick pitstop at Tesco's, back to the flat, drinks, and off into town for Katie Hughes leaving do. James came with us and Aimee had just been dropped off here too, so we got a taxi to Lloyds bar. It was rammed, and the bar was 5 people thick. The Hbos'ers were out in force. Marcus Green, Katie, Kirsty, Gareth, Julia, Matt H, Will and more but my brain is still trying to come to terms with the weekend, so apology's if I've missed you off. Over to the Gatekeeper where the drinks flowed constantly till bout 11 and the group split between Reflex and Edwards. Left for home bout 12ish, (I think) and got a taxi with James and Aimee, got some grub and then stayed up with James till bout 3 in the morning and we were both pickled!!!

Saturday - No hangover! Thank god, as I had loads to do! Woke up and my phone was under constant bombardment from Andrea. I had spoken to her last night when she rang but as I was out on the lash I didn't want to speak to her. After about 30 phone calls, I finally picked up the phone. Wasn't the nicest conversation in the world to be perfectly honest, there was a lot of anger from both sides, and I really let fly with how I felt. Anyway, its all behind me now, as I do not have to have any contact with her at all. The numbers gone from my phone and so is all traces of her. My brother Matt arrived bought 12, so we went to town and bought some DVD's and a new shirt!

The day was rapidly approaching the night, and the beers had already started to flow. We got ready, and the taxi arrived on time to take us to the Gatekeeper. Few cheeky doubles and we were well on the way. Over to the POW and another double and a Evo juice (wkd blue and smirnoff ice). On to the walkabout where the fun had just begun!!

Don't try and piss in my pocket and tell me it's raining

2004-10-14T10:09:00.000-07:00

Life it seems has a very funny knack of letting you get back on track before kicking you square in the nuts. That pretty much sums up this weeks actions! Anyway, here's the week in bits.

So, Tuesday. Actually got up feeling ok, still got a bit of cold, but am managing to get my head together and am actually starting to quite enjoy myself. Work was ok, got with what I had to do and had an hour off right at the end of the day, which is always a bonus! A brucie bonus! (Get your own cathphrases Kelly!!) Finished work and went straight to Asda. Met James and Nora and did the weekly food shop. Mental note to self - don't go shopping with both of them, its one or the other!! Nah, honestly, it was cool and the first time that it didn't feel weird doing shopping without her. Anyway, got back and stuck a pizza in the oven before being picked up by Matty J and going to the Springbok.

Twas' a good night, felt relaxed in the pub, had a beer, but was still a bit twitchy as the previous time I'd been I bumped into her sister. Anyway, the cinema club was back on form. Perrry and his new missus, Matt J, dolph, Gemma, Don and I all went to see the same film!!! Layer cake. Wasn't great, wasn't awful. I would say a review will be on the film log, but I have been really crap recently and haven't done the last two yet!! If you like British humour and a shady drug dealing type plot then go see it, there are a couple of great one liners (see title of blog).

Got home and chilled with J and N before going bed. Slept well again!!

Wednesday. I didn't want to go to work, just cos I was well tired. Probably, because I'd got up an hour early thinking I had to take James to work, when I didn't! My face was probably a picture when he told me!! Work was ok, but as an added bonus, I booked a half day and left at 12.30
Straight to Tesco's to grab a few things, but I bumped into one of my old work mates, Will. Hadn't seem him for ages and he was well surprised when I told him the news about her. But, we exchanged numbers and will go out soon. It's funny how many previous social connections are re-opening now I'm back on me todd!! Finally, went and bought my desk after Tesco's and got back to the flat about 2. The whole reason of the half day was kip, but it didn't happen. The desk took me ages to get together and then I was on a one man mission to finish my bedroom ,so up went the pictures, posters, DVD, ps2 etc! Looking good! Pictures on there way in next couple of days!

By this time, James had come home and we went over the Albany to watch the England game. What a waste of time!! At least the beer was cold! Had a good laugh though which at the moment is all that counts. Back home and Becky Kennedy arrived for tea. What a good laugh we had. Bex had never met Nora and they got on fine. All had tea, watched some TV and chatted shit! Great evening. For the first time, I felt like this was my house. The bedroom was finished and I'd finally got rid of the feeling that I had just popped round James and Nora's house!!! Bed earlyish!

Now, Thursday. I have had an awesome week so far, I feel great within myself. I haven't cried for over a week and rarely think about her, hope your all proud!!! So I went to work with a smile on my face, until bang it all went pear shaped. The SLT job. I must of got it, well no, somehow I didn't and have to rot in fraud. Was pissed right off for all of 2 hours until I just cracked on with work and thought I don't want to work here anyway, so what does it matter?

So, now I'm home and I'm feeling top notch again. Am so looking forward to the weekend, Friday night out with work, Saturday my bro, and Sunday my dad's fiftieth party! Bring on the booze! I DEmand booze!!!

Stumble to the kitchen, pour myself a cup of ambition!

2004-10-11T14:37:00.000-07:00

The first proper weekend in the flat has come and gone, and I have to admit that I had a wicked time.

Friday night was fairly laid back. I was really tired and was still feeling rough. The three housemates cracked open some JD and had a night in front of the TV. It was pretty cool, nowt brilliant on TV but it was a good laugh. Saturday, and I got up bought 11. Sorted some stuff and waited for James to come home from work. England were taking on Wales, unfortunately Wales forgot this and didn't even try!! The venue was the Billabong, and the beers soon flowed through several hours of banter and football. The exit from the pub seemed tricky as food was required as was more booze. Suddenly, Withnail (James) had the bright idea of doing both at once at Tesco! Scotch eggs, spag bol and beers! Back to the flat, X-factor and more football. Finally, went bed at about 1.30 after watching Another 48 hours. Was a bit worse for wear, I have to admit.

Sunday - It had finally come to Cardiff!
Had a busy day so managed to lie in bed too along and having to rapidly jumping in shower, and preparing for an appearance in society! Owain, Bex Kennedy and Matt Ford where going to the bay for food, and it was good to get together. Had some munch in the Salt Bar and had a few chilled hours, before saying goodbye, and going back to mine with Owain. Mad mission time then, as we had to walk to town. Collect my brother, have a look in a few shops, get batteries for the camera and.....Oh yeah, go watch RAW Live and Loaded. Hell Yeah!
Awesome evening, the seats were brilliant and the wrestling was good. When we first sat down, a door opened next to us and Maven came out said hello and went back in. I sat in silence before realizing who it was. Before, we know the doors opened again and Eugene was there. I couldn't believe it, they were like a metre away. Then, the door goes again. William Regal. Well, I was loving it! The fights got going and the banter got more frequent, the occasional wooo.

Check out the photo's of the event on the new blog. The Son of the Hyperdoopelator has been born, The bastard child of a weekend in Cardiff.

Highlights of the wrestling. Well, Val Venis was class and the money shot was well received. Seeing Jericho kiss ass and Edge spear Christian! Rhyno's gore, Euguene's stunner, Kane's chair shot, HHH's entrance, HBK loving the crowd, Flair's comedy fall, Benoit's beating and then the massive German suplexs!! A great night had by all.

Left Owain, and got home back 8.30. Had food and went bad, was proper bo though I can tell thee. Monday, and unfortunately I had to return to work. It was alright though, and I came away unscathed. Didn't do anything tonight, except set up the blog and cook tea for the house. Am pretty busy now till next Monday, but will try and update as often as possible.

Better get myself Connected!

2004-10-08T06:48:00.000-07:00

So, the internet is back in action. Thank goodness! I had it installed on Thursday but it didn't work and someone had to come out today, then I spent half an hour on my mobile ringing them to fix it!! Probably cost a fortune, but the net is back!!! Quick re-cap on the week!

Wednesday- Got up and promptly was sick and had awful sore throat. James insisted that I ring in sick so I went back to bed until 2 o'clock. Not the best nights sleep. Probably didn't help the cause. A couple of weird, horrible dreams freaked me out. When I awoke, I slouched on the sofa and was soon joined by Nora who was also ill. We chatted and didn't do much else!! James came back and had to move more stuff. I was feeling minging so I stayed in again, but this time it was all 3 of us. The first night we'd all been together in the place, so we had some food and drinks and watched Hollow Man. I relaxed and felt really comfortable with them and with myself. I went to bed about 12.30, and when I got into bed, I managed to take a whole breathe which made me feel safe. The first time this had happened for 5 weeks. It took me a while to get to sleep, but I was soon out for the count and only woke up to my alarm at 9.30. I felt damn good!

Thursday- My Mum came over in the morning and met Nora, before we went out for a coffee. It was good, and me and Mum had a good chat, and although I had a difficult five minutes I was soon feeling pretty good again. Mum stayed for a while and then made her way to Nan's. NTL turned up and installed the net, but then it never worked! Me and Nora then went to get our haircut. Mental note to self - NEVER DO THIS AGAIN!!! It was a really good laugh, but when you normally pay a fiver to get your barnet chopped, having to pay £18 makes your butthole quiver!! Yes, she took ages on it, and yes it looks pretty good, and other people have said that not just me!!!! I was still feeling rough, but had promised to meet Katie Hughes from work for a drink. I felt anxious before hand, because I hadn't had to go out on my own like this for a very long time. Katie's cool and is my of my close friends from HBOS, but it felt weird! As soon as I got there though, I just completely relaxed and I felt great. Katie's sister Amy was also there, and we had a wicked chat, a few drinks and a bash on the karaoke. So, this goes out to all the HBOS'ers who've never heard me sing. If you want to find out what it was like, go ask Katie!!
Picked up a Chinese on the way home, and Amy came back to mine and we watched a film and chatted for ages. Katie had work the next day which was a shame otherwise she would of come over too.

It's amazing how a couple of low days get immediatly erased because of a couple of good days. Thursday was a good day.

Friday morning, and I still felt like crap, so I phoned in and went back to bed before the NTL man woke me up. He fixed the net and off he trotted. I on the other hand, had a raging headache, blocked nose and felt like I could sleep for Britain. I stayed awake though, so I could get a good sleep tonight. Nora came back from her girly night out about 12, and she was in a right mess, so we both went to get some fresh air by taking the dog for a walk!!!

As for this weekend, hopefully, the flu won't hold me back to much, and I seriously cannot wait for the WWE on Sunday. I know it's sad but this is a dream I've had since being a little kid. I have always wanted to see an event live. Here's my chance - WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

2004-10-08T06:43:00.000-07:00

Paul getting down in Groove town!!!

2004-10-08T06:40:00.000-07:00

Walkabout Swansea! Me, Paul and Dai with some random girl who insisted on being the photo!!!

Look at the stars, how they shine for you?

2004-10-05T05:19:00.000-07:00

Monday. The first night in the new place was good. Sleep was average, not crap, not great. The trip to work took 10 minutes! I love that! No more sitting in traffic for half an hour in the morning! Work was ok, I just cracked on with it, and eventually left at 6 after making an hour up for my day off on Thursday.

I went to Asda (again!) and bought Eternal sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Awesome film, but it's a bout a relationship split so I haven't watched it yet. Might give it a week!! Please, go see this film. It is brilliant and I would love to talk to someone else about it!! No one I know has seen it, except my little bro, Josh! He loved it too. Got a bin and a few bits and bobs for the flat, and went home. Nora made me laugh when I got in, as she was so excited by this reality TV programme with Donald Trump!! She had to fly to Corfu tonight so again it was me and James. James didn't finish till late so for the first time, I was in the new flat on my own. I kept busy and set up the TV,DVD,video systems in the lounge and cleared the final boxes from my room. It looks good, as soon as it is finished I will get some photo's on. Just chilled in the night, as I am still really tired at present. Need to re-align my body clock!!!!!

Tuesday. Bad day. Really down in the morning but only when I got to work. I really struggled and for no apparent reason. She text me again, which really got to me this time and I had to let rip when I got on the phone with her. After, she didn't have any common courtesy to respond to the note I left in the house the other day. I was angry wither, because she expected an immediate reponse to sorting out the final bills when she hasn't even got them at the mo! She said that she didn't care anymore because she didn't have to, and I said that she hadn't cared for a while and had just used me. I have finally reached a point when I don't ever want to speak to her again, and a lot of people told me this from the start, and they don't want to speak to her either. Can't wait to sort the final bills, and severe all ties with her.

Tuesday evening and it should of been the cinema club, but it didn't happen. So, I stayed at home with James again and a few of his mates came round which was cool. Had a good laugh and went to bed really early.

Free Cable! Who told you that, what is his name? I want it

2004-10-04T05:21:00.000-07:00

The weekend has come and gone, as has the last month. It's now other a month since the dead duck day, and my feelings are mixed. I look back and think, wow, its gone really quickly and then I look at individual days and nights and it seems to of taken for ages. I have wished a lot of the last month away, just because I wanted to get to a point when things would start to feel better, I wasn't hurting inside anymore and I had little chance of bumping into her.

The Saturday morning was tough, I won't lie and tell you it was easy, and standing in the doorway of that empty, knowing what I was leaving behind, really sticks in my mind. It felt like a movie, I was doing the obligatory turn around, look back and then walk away scene. The folks were great and the large bottle of JD they bought me for the new gaff will come in handy! Big Thanks to the Evans family, I would of been useless without you all.

I got down to the new gaff, and the boxes filled my new room. I was a little worried about space, but as soon as I had turned the bed round to where I wanted it, the room seemed to double in size!! My Dad stayed a while and helped me with the room, and I was grateful of that as he can come out with really sound pearls of wisdom. James and Nora soon arrived and started to move there stuff in, I really started to relax for the first time in a month. Me and Nora chatted away eating marmite on toast, before I had to get ready to drive to Port Talbot.

The drive was pretty simple and the car seemed fine. A few cans at Paul's and then the pub, then onto Swansea. It was about 3 and a half years ago the last time I went out in Jack land, and I did have a laugh! I do have photo's but due to not having the internet at home until Thursday I can't upload them. We went to the local before getting a taxi to Swansea, and then went on a mini pub crawl. I was introduced to the world of Abosolute Chambulls! Vodka, Red bull and champagne! Smells like feet, and doesn't taste much better!!! The first place was called I Love Vodka! Certainly, a statement that I don't agree with. Well, from there onto the Lounge bar. Quite a weird place as there is a no smoking rule, so the air is breathable! After, that we went to Chicago Rock and then onto the Walkabout.

This place was big! And it was rammed, but it was a really good laugh. Everyone seemed up for a big of a boogie, and no hassle. I really did enjoy myself in there and felt as I didn't have to worry about anything. It was in here, that a couple of women grabbed my mate and asked if I was Spencer Moon from Eastenders. Everyone thought, this was hilarious except me! All I had all night was ' Alright Spence'! Funny the first time, not the 300th!! It even sparked another conversation with a set of girls in the queue for Jumping Jacks! Now, this Jacks was about twice the size of Cardiff and twice as busy! I was pretty knackered at this point, and food beckoned.

Me and Paul had a good chat on the way home, and sitting in his house. Haven't really seen the lad properly for a while and it was really good to get back to how we used to be! A very good mate, and one that I could trust my life with.

Sunday was ok. I wasn't that hung over so the when I finally managed to get out of bed, I didn't feel the need to eat a box worth of Alka Setzler! I got back in the car and made my way home, it seemed to take forever, and when I had to wait in a massive traffic jam at culverhouse cross, I thought I was going to have to do a Michael Douglas from Falling Down!! Now, that would of been funny.

I popped into Asda to try and get a computer desk but failed, so bought some bed sheets etc and got back to the flat. As soon as I turned into the street, I immediately felt a sense of security come over me, and for the first time in a while, there was going to be other people in the house when I returned! James sorted me out with a cup of tea and I cracked on with some bits and pieces, before just slobbing round chatting to Nora!! Over to the Albany pub then to watch the footy, Chelsea vs Liverpool, pretty crap match to be honest but got me out for the house.

In the flat again, and Nora had to go to fly to Bodrum (lucky her!!) and me and James had free reign over the new house. Takeaway and a DVD, before more football! Quality!!!

Stanley Ipkiss quote: Nice guys finish last

2004-10-01T13:46:00.000-07:00

Jim Carrey got it right in this film, nice guys finish last. But, then they manage to pull Cameron Diaz!! Oh well, perhaps there's light at the end of the tunnel. So, Thursday. I woke up feeling ok, but that soon ended when Andrea texted me and I had to ring her. She was going to get her stuff that night. I was fine for the rest of the day and actually got involved with this project in work, which is going really well, and I seem to be getting a lot praise for once.

I finished early and took my Nan shopping at Asda, as Gramps can't drive again yet. That was ok, and helped me try to relax. I picked up a new duvet and pillows and Nan insisted on giving me some cash. I said no about 50 times but she wouldn't give in!!!

Got home and started sorting the flat. Andrea rang me early and came over about 5.30. I had sorted all her stuff out for her, but see couldn't take any off it then, as she was going to do it Friday morning. I wasn't very happy, but didn't have a choice and we did manage to have a chat and say goodbye to each other. I was strong and I was quite proud of myself afterwards for dealing with the situation in an emotionless way. I was even okay afterwards. I packed more stuff and finished formatting the script. 96 sides!! Holy crap, I've never written anything of this size before!!

Friday morning was ok, but I was a little tense as I knew Andrea was coming to the flat. I had written a note which wished her luck and dealt with some logistics. Work was ok, if a little slow. Andrea text me at about 4 and said she hadn't dropped of my PS2 stuff. I rang her to find out what was going on, and then decided I'd go pick them up for myself from her mum's. I left work, went to Asda for some boxes and then to Andrea's mums place. This wasn't good. I was as strong as I could be but speaking to your ex's mum is not good. She was lovely but there's nothing that she could say that would make me feel better, and I felt awkward.

I got home and there was no response to the note, just the keys pushed through the letter box. This really hurt, as I thought that I at least deserved a thanks. No, all I got was a kick the face. This got me really upset, and also made me quite angry. I packed and packed more stuff, ready for the big move tomorrow. The last week has been very hard. A limbo week between my new life and my old life. I've had a good few chats with people this week, and it's helped a lot. Tomorrow, will be the test. Go, get out there and enjoy myself. I'm off to Swansea tomorrow evening, so I should be able to relax up there, away from all my troubles. Looking forward to wearing my new gear, and having a laugh.

I will be without the internet for the next week, until NTL arrive and install it in the new place. I will try to check on the blogger's, and update in work. Thanks everybody, this nice guy is moving on.

Ups, Downs, Right, Left, Spectacle, Testicle, Wallet and Watch

2004-09-30T04:42:00.000-07:00

Tuesday nights sleep wasn't great and I woke up with a fright on Wednesday morning, even though I didn't have to go to work. I was off to Bath for the day, so after being on hold for an eternity with NTL, and then the water board, my mum arrived and off we went.

The traffic and weather weren't kind and I was feeling really tense. But, I did manage to enjoy myself in the end, me mum managed to come out with some pearls of wisdom and made me purchase a new outfit! So, I went mad and spent quite a bit of cash. Bought a new jacket which is well smart, jumper and trousers. Also, bought my mum lunch as it was her birthday and she has helped me quite a lot in the last few weeks. Bath was good, but the memories were there and at some points it was tough. But, I'm glad I've been there again already or I may never of gone back again, which would of been quite sad.

On the way home, I was shattered and fell asleep for a while, and I wished I fallen asleep all the way because as I was getting dropped off by my mum, I saw Andrea. Not too speak to, but just to see in passing, and my stomach lurched towards the floor!!! I wasn't good after that, but couldn't put my finger on why. My mum left and I went on the net, and tried to find some information about getting a film script commissioned. I found a few addresses, and even an email address, which said they'd be happy to review scripts and give feedback, but only if laid out properly. This could prove to be a struggle, as I haven't formatted any of the script yet, and now that I have it is taking ages. It's not great fun, but the net stated that if it doesn't look right it'll go straight in the bin.

James came and picked me up then and we went to the Maltesers for a few sociables and a look at Chelsea's European progress. It was a good evening, good chat and actually had me in a relaxed state of mine. Afterwards, I got some food and went home. I tried to format some of the script, but ran out of motivation fairly quickly and went to bed.

I need a HERO! Or maybe just a pleasant pleasure!

2004-09-28T15:30:00.000-07:00

The day started of badly with a dream which could of made me phone in sick to work. But, I battled straight on cracked on with my work and tried to entertain some others. I had a 1990-2001 lyrics quiz which I used as a quiz all day, due to the lack of a team leader! Exploitation of HBOS resources always good!!! Had the take the piss regarding yesterdays Spandau Ballet/Ross Kemp confusion, and again it made me laugh my ass off!!

After work, i had started to feel pretty good, so I popped to James house and then came home for some food! It was cinema club time so I got ready and waited for Karen to call round. She was running late so I played on the guitar for a bit. The last two weeks have seen me play the guitar more than I have done in the last year. Strange!!!!

Karen arrived and we went to the Sringbok to meet a smaller version of the cinema club. Just Perry, and Don from the boys. Matt had stayed home. The film was Hero and was awesome. (Review soon but I have been slack and haven't done last weeks yet!). Just as I was goin into the screen, I bumped into andrea's sister Jo. My stomach tightened but I wasn't too bad, and it was cool speaking to her. Jo was always really cool, and I got on with her. It wasn't awkward, but still a little unnerving. But, next time it would be fine.

Happy birthday to my Mum! Going to Bath with her tomorrow for food and shopping. Might have to spoil her! Need to get a way for a day and enjoy myself. This is a great opportunity. Big shout out to Owain's top trump game, I needed a tenner lady after looking at the photos!

He carries a Big Stick, A Ball and Chain too

2004-09-27T13:02:00.000-07:00

Firstly, on a sad note Wrestling fans around the world unite for Ray Traylor a.k.a the Big boss man has passed away. Constantly given people a 'Hard time', and laying some night stick action down on some of the best WWF/WWE wrestlers of all time. I'll always remember Big Boss Man for one of the funniest segments I had ever seen. Big Show's at a fake funeral for his dad and Boss man turns up in a Hurst and tows the coffin down the street with Big Show hanging on for dear life!! Also, the Kennel from Hell match (what were they thinking?), and one of the cheesiest theme tunes ever. Respect to Boss man.

So, what have I done today? Applied for a position back on SLT. Better than where I am, and more money so it's a step in right direction. Work was average today, not good, not awful. Although, I did manage to laugh out loud and nearly spit drink everywhere, when one of the lads on my team said 'I've got an application for Ross Kemp, wasn't he in Spandau Ballet?' I giggled at the stupidity but then someone else said yes! I just creased up and managed to tell them that Ross Kemp was actually Grant Mitchell! Class! Had a few tough spots today where my brain just didn't want to think about work, but the last 3 weeks. Not good when your trying your hardest to stay in a positive frame of mind.

When I arrived in work, I immediately took abuse for the Wolves result but did get a programme of the game from Nia (Big thanks, really appreciated that). This cheered me up until people started too notice my now purple eye! Katie had also bought me a present, but I didn't have a clue what it was. It turned out that a while back we had been talking about kids programmes and how much we both liked Bertha as a kid. Well, she'd only ordered a DVD from Play.com! I laughed and have watched one episode this evening. Surreal!!

Left work and pottered around Asda before getting back and talking to Owain. (Cheers Mr Lewis, had a great chat mate, helped me loads, looking forward to seeing you soon buddy). And not much else, didn't get anything planned for this evening and its really weird being on my own!
Busy for the rest of the week though, I shall take this chance to try to chill out!

The Black Eyed Peas

2004-09-26T06:03:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a strange day. The first weekend that I have spent on my own since the dead duck day. I didn't get out of bed until 1.45 and then I really didn't know what to with myself. Do I go to town on my own? Do I ring some people up and see what there up to? It really was a strange feeling. I just lazed around for a while and listened to the football on the radio and proceeded to write some more of my film script. It's coming along nicely!

I then got ready and went down Matty J's house to start the night off. We got a taxi to Perry's house and had a few beers before walking into town and going to Callaghans to see Chris (Ton's of fun) play in his band the ErrorPlains. Quite a strange combination of guitar and electrics, bit like the chemical brothers, loads of drum and bass etc! I enjoyed it and it was something that I hadn't done for a long time. We went from there to the Philly and the fun and games commenced. I had decided not to get that drunk and I stuck to my word and only had a few more drinks in the Philly, but I still had a good time. It was later that the night was ruined by the typical yob culture of Cardiff, and one reason which always makes me think twice about going into town. I went outside at closing time and 4-5 women started having a mass brawl. They were on the floor and pushing people and I was just standing there kind a got caught up in it. The next thin I know some bloke has just punched/or headbutted in the face and I didn't even see who it was. I turned around and he was gone, and nobody had seen who it was. Matty J didn't see anything, so I was just stuck with a massive black eye. Woke up this morning and it doesn't look good. I've never had a black eye in the whole of my life and I feel that this one was just completely unnecessary. So, I might as well make a request now if anybody else wants to shit on me from a great height then come and do it now. I think I've experienced so much in the last 3 weeks that nothing else could really make it worse. I've had the dead duck day, my gramps in hospital, the fridge packed in and the DVD player. I didn't get that job in work, I get punched in the head for no reason. My little sister had trouble in school and rang me up crying bless her. But, I'm still standing I don't want to think about giving up and rolling onto my knees never to get up again. I'm gonna turn this son-a-bitch sideways and stick up the world's candy ass!! (Thanks Dwayne Johnson).

I left Matt's very early this morning and drove home. I was supposed to play football but to be honest my hearts just not in it. The lads are cool but I just don't really think I fit in there and would prefer to start running again. With roath park, so close to my new place then hopefully I will get some motivation, maybe even join a running club. Also, training is now going to be 9 till 10 on a Thursdays evening - too late me thinks!!! So I went back to sleep, and chilled. The phone went constantly between 12 and 1. My brother rang me and had a chat about last night. He's a real good lad, and I'm glad that he years me and him had as youngsters in school, constantly on at each other left us behind. I'm really proud of Matt cos he has shown everyone that he is capable of achieving what he wants. I look forward to going down to Reading in a few weeks!

My uncle text me then, and my sister! Then I spoke to an old skool HBOS'er Martyn Price (Rolph). I hadn't spoken to him for ages and he hadn't heard about the Andrea story so it was tough re-telling the story but needed to be down and afterwards I felt better. We spoke for a long time and I look forward to seeing him in the next few weeks too. Old friendships it seems stand the test of time. Then, me mum rang. This really was hard. Over the last week, everyone has said how proud they are of me etc etc but even I felt that I had been doing well. Speaking to my mum sent me into relapse and I just had to have a cry. The black eye, the weight still on my shoulders and the little hangover have not helped. Note to self - stay off the pop for at least a week.

On a lighter note, anybody who wants to abuse me for supporting Wolves and being beaten by Cardiff city this weekend, feel free!

Damn it Janet!

2004-09-24T10:30:00.000-07:00

The night out was fun. After getting to Perry's house and drinking stupid amounts of Turbo Shandy, and being bloated like a goodyear blimp, we ended up in the Springbok. It was pretty keep and after the earlier drinks festivities were already pretty merry. The lads were trying to coax me into pulling some birds but I felt like a wall was still blocking my way and I just didn't have any confidence to even bother trying. Really strange feeling, several emotions at once, and just made me feel far too awkward. The drinks flowed and then we went to the Hard rock cafe and then onto the Philly!!

It was rammed and we had to queue up to get in, but it was quite amusing. Several people tried to sneak in through an open side door and soon got busted back to the street. Three girls who funnily enough work at HBOS in the evenings in Inbound, were queuing just in front. They were all from London and were squeaky as hell!! In fact, we just called one of them Squeaky! Well, a bit of banter went to and fro, until someone mentioned that I'd just been dumped. This didn't sit well with me at all, and to be perfectly honest pissed me off. If I want to tell people then fair enough, but I don't need anyone else spreading my life around like marmite on toast. The girl unfortunately got it in the neck for this. I didn't do anything stupid but just told her to mind her own business and for everyone else to keep their noses out. She was alright about it and actually apologists to me afterwards, she was harmless but had the most annoying voice ever!!!

The Philly was a bit crap, too many people and too many blokes. It was still a good laugh as we wandered around and chatted to randoms!! Perry and Don went home early and me and Matt stayed till closing time. By the time, we had staggered out and finished talking to three girls from Talybont (oh the memories!), who thought Matt was a gay hairdresser, it was nearly 2.30. The taxi ride home was well funny. The lighthouse family came on the radio singing High. I mentioned it was a bit of a tune so the driver cranked it up and all three of us sang it all the way home! The funny thing was I didn't even think about this until 1 o'clock this afternoon. I was like, did that really happen? A singing taxi driver?! Class!

Well, work was ok today even though I was pretty ill. The breakfast helped and I just got on with it. When I finished at 2.45, I dropped Matt home and then went to James house. Nora, James and I all went ot he new gaff to pay the bond, and had a sly pint in the Albany (that's going to be a great local). When I was there my current Landlord Peter rang me and said that he had people who were willing to move in before the 15th (when I was paid up to). He then offered to pay me money back as I was moving out on the 2nd. I couldn't believe it, what a quality bloke. I was well chuffed with this, but for some reason it also got me really upset, as it made every seem for final. I'd done so well this week, but I couldn't help a few tears escaping. I texted Andrea and told her so we can finally sort the final, final things out. So, Friday night and I'm not going out for the first time in 4 weeks!! Recovery is needed and tea at James is called for. God I'm so grateful to this pair! Out tomorrow though, so expect some more photos! Love and kisses to all!

'Someday we're gonna get so Highhhhhhhhhhh'

Damage Limitation

2004-09-23T09:37:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, was another good and bad day. Andrea phoned me in the morning in work and I had to ring her back to give her some details about the landlord and explain the bill situation. The TV license people got right on my tits, but the others were simple enough. Speaking to Andrea didn't sit well with my stomach and that awful tense feeling came back for a hour or two, but after that I was ok again. Obviously, I still have things to sort out with Andrea but it doesn't make it any easier. Work was alright and went fairly quickly.

After work, I took my Nan shopping as my grampy is still recovering from his heart bypass op. Respect to the man though, cos he came out of hospital in less than week. I picked Nan up and the traffic was awful so we made back to Asda after bout half an hour. She got her bits and bobs and insisted on paying for mine because I'd taken her. Don't you just love Nan's! Went straight home after but it was already 7 and I was shattered. I then rang James and he said that I had to go to his cos he was cooking me food. Well, I couldn't really refuse an offer like that, could I?!!!

Nora cooked an awesome Thai curry and we chatted bout the new place, which just made me feel even more comfortable moving in with two of best friends. They've been great the last 3 weeks, and I am really excited for October 2nd. Got home bout 10 and tried to chill out before going bed and sleeping. Thank god the bad dreams have nearly gone!!

Today, work was really slow and I couldn't wait to leave. The boys have taken me under their wing and MADE me to go town tonight. The first time I will of been out drinking on a school night for a very long time!! Perry was great this morning and really cheered me up when I felt a little low. Matty J made the arrangements and it fitted in well, cos I can give him a lift to work tomorrow as I'm sleeping over. No doubt work will be tough tomorrow, hungover but it's only 9 till 2.45 so ca la vie! I hope I have a good night tonight, I'm sure I will, but I think I'll air on the side of caution on the booze front!! So, time to put on some tunes and get ready for another step up the ladder to moving on.

On a lighter note, I would like to send thanks out to The Thrills whose song what ever happened to Corey Haim?, milled around my head all day! Mental note to self - DO NOT listen to that song again before work.

Man, I'm really ticked off!

2004-09-21T15:05:00.000-07:00

So, Tuesday! Well, good and bad things today. James was off sick but was in the process of sorting out his side of the bond etc for the flat so things are moving forward. Looks like I will have my new pad ready for October 2nd. A week before Owzy and WWE hit Cardiff! Good news all round.

After, the interview on Friday, I found out today that I didn't get the job, and was quite disappointed for all of an hour. I would of liked to of got it, of course I would, but afterwards I thought I can get depressed again or just crack on with everything else. I'll apply for something else and hopefully be successful with that, there's going to be very little feeling sorry for myself now. I had a little relapse when I went to sleep last night but I got through it and had a good nights sleep. No more bad dreams (fingers crossed). Some things still feel strange. I went to Asda after work to get some food and didn't have a clue what to get because I was only cooking for one! I managed to get a few things, went home, sorted some logistics (water bill etc), and then went straight back out to the cinema.

The cinema club was split again, but this week Bex came along for a chat and I had a great time. Matt J and Julia came with me and Bex to see Collateral (See review on my film log tomorrow). Perry, Don and Karen went to watch Anchorman. We all met before and the films finished at the same time which was handy cos I was giving Karen a lift home!! All in all, not a bad day.

RT-yes the photos were from Friday - Cheryl's leaving do!

Knackered now, so straight to bed!

2004-09-20T14:24:00.000-07:00

Me and Karen

2004-09-20T14:23:00.000-07:00

Filippa, Cheryl and a wrecked Matty J

2004-09-20T14:22:00.000-07:00

Sam and Dolph (This photo is ace!)

2004-09-20T14:19:00.000-07:00

Kev, Rich, Cheryl and Matt H

2004-09-20T14:18:00.000-07:00

Don and Karen

Dead duck day

2004-09-20T13:21:00.000-07:00

So, when life is bumbling along, you never truly no what is round the corner. Now, the dead duck day (if you've seen about a boy you will know what I'm on about), knocked me for 6. Fate it seems dealt me a joker, and then ripped it in half, and gave it back to me!! I won't go into details, I'm now 23, single for the first time in very close to 3 years, and moving into a new flat with 2 mates in Roath. Seems strange, has felt bad, very bad and then not so bad. Yet, fate it seems has a new design for me.

Now, 3 years is a long time and looking back, I had some great times and some bad times, but I will always look back fondly over this time, except for the abrupt end. Now, I can truly understand what the phrase 'Time heals' feels like. But, what have I done about it?

Well, I applied for a new job and got an interview, awaiting the result tomorrow. I've auditioned for the new Halifax commercial, singing David Gray's Babylon without an accompaniment. Something, I never thought I would do. Also awaiting the result on that one (don't hold your breath, I'm under no illusion that will be far, far better people than myself auditioning). I've sorted a new flat, as of tonight with James Leavers (fellow HBOS'er) and his girlfriend Nora. A two bedroomed gaff which looks wicked and is ten paces away from the Albany pub! (Dear diary........................Jackpot).

Work is pretty crap at the mo, just a bit boring compared to the last few months, but I'll last it out cos the people there are still cool. Although, many have left.

The first few nights in the flat on my home have been okay and quite productive! This new blog, a few chats, some football, and some DVD's! Cinema tomorrow with Bex Kennedy. Thursday night playing football and Friday out on the lash again.

Last Friday, I went out with Matt James and had an awesome night. Cheers Matt, you've been wicked these last couple of weeks mate. Also massive thanks to Jo Mcmullen, Bex, Owzy, James Leavers, Don, Perry, Dolph, Sam, Rich, Nicola, Sara, Katie, Dave Byfield, Sally, my bro's and my mum! Anyway, from pub to club I drank, chatted and had a great night. I laughed properly for the first time in ages and also met Sarah who I hadn't seen in nearly a year and a half. Having worked with her in Tesco's as a fellow skater, we had been good mates, and it was cool just to catch up. I have some photo's to follow for the night out!

So, what am I going to do with myself now. Well, there's plenty planned. A shopping trip next week for me mum's birthday next week. A night out in port Talbot with Paul 'Grizzly' Levers, the WWE raw live and loaded show with Owzy and Josh. A new flat, hopefully a weekend away soon and what ever else I want (I guess!).

Things looked bad, but hopefully, it's only going to get better now!